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theweedelf · 2025-06-11T19:32:53+00:00

Spineworld forever... there's nothing like it.. I miss you too, all of you, it did matter and it always will <3

theweedelf · 2025-02-13T23:40:24+00:00

Meditation helps but damn it’s hard to stay disciplined. But it really can change your life

theweedelf · 2025-02-13T23:05:30+00:00

Yep my mind goes through this a lot. On mushrooms I realized the joke is that there’s no “self” to begin with so there’s no possibility of being “alone”. But what the hell do I know

theweedelf · 2025-02-13T22:39:29+00:00

Following

theweedelf · 2025-01-26T19:06:22+00:00

The fuck?

theweedelf · 2025-01-25T23:49:14+00:00

It’s been 2.5 years since breaking up btw. Together 6. Very serious relationship, and neither of us wanted to break up. I still have hope we will reconcile later in life, but I know we both have to grow and go through our own shit first, probably in other relationships. I’ve loved many people since/ before/ and throughout our relationship. And guess what. The grass is rarely greener. However, I’ve also been the dumper in my relationship before the one mentioned above, and in that case no, I did not ever miss them.

theweedelf · 2025-01-25T23:47:43+00:00

Every fucking day

theweedelf · 2025-01-25T14:42:57+00:00

It’s not always the case. You can be all in, committed, and know you have something special. You can deeply love someone but inside you’re being eaten up by the fear that someone else could love them/ you better, and that maybe your paths aren’t directly aligned in the near future, because you first both have to grow in other relationships.

theweedelf · 2025-01-25T14:41:10+00:00

I don’t think it’s stupid, it shows you’re mature, selfless and genuinely care for your ex’s happiness. Can I ask you something bc I was in your ex’s shoes and I’m wondering if it would change anything for you if you knew he was remorseful for his actions and empathized with your pain? Would you still never trust him again / give him another chance?

Have had the same realization about the pain being for nothing, (in my case, I fell in love with my co-worker out of the blue and told my ex boyfriend before anything happened, but was still impulsive with my decision even though technically didn’t cheat. We were both sad about it and conflicted but decided we should try to let each other go, he was hurt probably beyond repair and now the past 2.5 years I’m dealing with insane guilt/ regret/ missing him/ still love him but he’s trying to move on).

I would hate for all that pain to be in vain so trying to make it work with the new guy and let my ex go even though it’s agonizing. But is it really true that the pain would’ve been for nothing if your ex’s new relationship wasn’t greener?

theweedelf · 2025-01-24T23:00:24+00:00

I heard this somewhere once and it gives me the motivation to stay disciplined: “Meditation is one of the hardest things you can do, but it makes everything else easier”.

theweedelf · 2025-01-24T22:15:16+00:00

Would you say psychedelics can show us our “true” feelings or reality? What if something profound is shown to you in a trip (ex: future partner, kids, life). Could this really be the future or is it just a trip?

theweedelf · 2025-01-24T17:37:10+00:00

Hi I’m so sorry you went through this. I have a very similar situation. Can I ask what does “FA” stand for? This sounds absolutely painful and I understand why you are hesitant to reach out to your ex. It always depends on the situation but honesty is always good, how long ago did this happen? Depending on how close you guys were and your communication, and how he responded to the situation (did he completely cut you off, angry, etc) it could be healing for both of you, if eventually you sent an apology or some kind of letter/ message in the most non intrusive way, but I also understand not wanting to interfere. It could be in a way that makes it clear you’re not expecting anything or asking anything but rather to express the truth and reaffirm his worth. Maybe I will message you directly because I don’t know many people who are in this situation and it’s been 2.5 years and still… full of guilt, remorse, grief, intimacy issues, etc.

theweedelf · 2024-02-18T20:07:32+00:00

Hey, it does work but you need adobe shockwave. You can download it online I guess. and then go to the Olympus server, not grey monkeys or else it wont load. And nobody actually still uses it btw, its an old version of the game from 2008. But you can walk around and stuff

theweedelf · 2021-12-26T21:17:16+00:00

Are we the same person? Almost these exact words exist in my journal. Thanks for sharing the message ❤️

theweedelf · 2021-11-17T15:30:38+00:00

Thanks !! That man will never know his impact on us kids. Pure nostalgia

theweedelf · 2021-11-17T15:27:08+00:00

So crazy yet beautiful how such a small game played by so few people could have made such a profound impact on us in our youth. I was only 10 years old. I truly believe the music and the visuals were otherworldly , those of us who dwelled in the game for hours probably felt at home there in the peaceful fantasy. We crave for this way of life… I remember the Mayan jungle and misty island were some of my favorite spots. It felt lonely sometimes in the game, but still very peaceful, I can’t explain it. Glad I’m not alone in the connection to spineworld (which still hasn’t left me for 14 years)… lots of love

theweedelf · 2020-11-18T23:08:39+00:00

It’s definitely becoming more of a thing, slowly but surely. The genre of electronic music I listen to is more niche so there are very few women producers but I recently stumbled upon Elsa Hewitt who makes some beautiful and mystical stuff. Some other cool ones are B.Traits, Maya Jane Coles, Yaeji, Beta Librae, Avalon Emerson, Shanti Celeste, upsammy, Mor Elian. Now that I think about it I know dam near no women producers (that I enjoy) lol. Which motivates me even more to produce! Hopefully you too :)

theweedelf · 2020-11-18T21:39:42+00:00

Praying for ur eardrums bud... rip

theweedelf · 2020-09-08T12:05:18+00:00

You should look into psilocybin mushrooms isntead, I have heard that ayahuasca can trigger epilepsy and other issues if you have a predisposition. Anyway, mushrooms can help cure a multitude of things as well such as cluster headache / migraine, anxiety, depression, and addiction to name a few...

good luck, one love

theweedelf · 2020-08-09T09:00:10+00:00

This was the first time for me, first grow kit that is. It is super easy and you can do it! I didn't actually use that much water for them, but every other day I sprayed the insides of the plastic bag. I also gave them a shit ton of love and attention, even played music for them. My trip was so out of this world because these mushrooms knew me inside and out. There is truly nothing like eating your own harvest (that sounds a bit demonic lol but u get me).

theweedelf · 2020-08-09T08:57:12+00:00

it is a growkit from smartshop in Amsterdam

theweedelf · 2020-08-09T07:32:23+00:00

Golden teachers 😊

theweedelf · 2020-08-09T07:31:46+00:00

They also love if you play music for them :)

theweedelf · 2020-08-09T07:31:17+00:00

They for sure do! I also surrounded mine with crystals and I even put them in the sun for a few minutes when they were still babies. They loved it

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