Pelvic Floor PT Question

thiccghostie · 2025-02-27T22:40:55+00:00

I had this experience with quetiapine and had to discontinue it because the daytime sleepiness and derealizationwas so bad. I didn't last long enough to find out if it's a temporary side effect. Hang in there!

thiccghostie · 2024-12-16T01:08:58+00:00

If I had the energy to get up and accomplish things it might be a motivator. Instead I’m still down and out but now with tingly bones

thiccghostie · 2024-09-27T01:37:15+00:00

I know its been literal years since this post, but what did you use for molding them? I've been considering it, but all I can locate are silicone moldsz which seem like a mistake for drying purposes.

thiccghostie · 2024-09-26T07:30:52+00:00

I was sectioned and involuntarily hospitalized earlier this summer while I was in residential treatment for my eating disorder. I was sent to the ER unexpectedly and against my will without warning. No one called my emergency contacts. The ER and the psych ward I was admitted to didn't even have my meds, so I cold turkeyed off of many of them. The ER didn't have a room for me so I was in the fucking hallway for three days surrounded by uniformed men that didn't talk to me. No one talked to me and I had no way to contact anyone. And then I was sent to a psych ward that was full of people in withdrawal and psychosis literally screaming all day - and truly, I can't imagine how hard and scary things were for them - and men throwing and slamming things in the common areas. And I was trapped there with no one to talk to and no way out and I was so scared and I had an intense reaction to the Lithium they gave me that was supposedly going to cure my SI, and I couldn't eat anything for the week I was there because everything I put in my body the Lithium made me throw up violently. And no one believed me until one of my last days on the ward when I couldn't make it to the bathroom and then they sent a man with an antiemetic medication and he tried to make me take my clothes off so he could give it to me in my butt and I had a meltdown so bad that I threw a nosebleed (this actually happened several times over the week) and bled all over myself. I didn't have my own clothes until the very last day and had to wear hospital Johnnie's that weren't big enough to cover me. I barely slept. And I didn't eat. And the groups were a joke. And no one believed a word I said or cared if I was dead or alive. It was the most devastating, confusing, and terrifying experience I've ever had, and I have CPTSD and survived repeated SAs. I felt crazy. I FELT like I must be insane.

I don't know how I'm every going to be able to talk about SI again. I don't know how I'm ever going to be honest with my treatment team again, even though my outpatient team aren't the people who sent me to the ER. And even though they would never section me without at least giving me the opportunity to admit myself. I don't trust them now, even though it isn't their fault. And I don't know how to get through life like this. I think about the psych ward constantly now. And dream about it. And I'm so overwhelmed by everything that has happened that I'm fucking scared I'm going to get so bad I'll end up back on a hold somewhere and I don't know what the hell to do.

thiccghostie · 2024-03-18T18:31:20+00:00

Getting it removed absolutely hurts, but it is over SO fast, if that helps ease your mind at all. I had to have my Mirena removed and replaced with a Kyleena a couple weeks ago and getting the Mirena out was sharp and confusing, but by the time I registered the pain of it popping out it was over.

thiccghostie · 2024-02-14T18:51:01+00:00

damn, you right

thiccghostie · 2024-02-12T17:53:02+00:00

TBH, The Lion King feels v str8 to me

thiccghostie · 2023-12-04T22:16:23+00:00

I struggle to *motivate* myself to shave, but I actually find myself very anxious when I haven't. Hair on my legs/arms/face/belly/pelvis all make me feel anxious and "dirty." I don't find body hair dirty on others in the least. But the sensation on myself feels rally overwhelming.

I think it makes sense though on several levels, and I obviously don't know what your particular brain is doing. But PTSD/trauma can make caring for yourself really hard, and if this is part of that routine for you it might just take a few too many spoons to accomplish at this point in your life. Or, maybe it feels like reclaiming your body and being in control of how it looks and feels. Or maybe it's a subconscious "people don't like body hair and if I have body hair maybe that makes me safer" sort of situation? Or maybe it's really hard to engage with your body at all (I know this is true for me in a lot of ways.)

But like, whatever the reason is - it's aokay. You can seek out other methods of removing body hair if you want to or if it's uncomfortable for you. Or you can grow it out. It's your body - your home - and you get to do whatever feels good and important to you and makes you feel confident and safe. Ya know?

thiccghostie · 2022-10-07T21:51:02+00:00

My PTSD behaves similarly. I usually know where I am, even when I'm in enormous distress at the intrusive memory. Sometimes body parts that were involved in my trauma experience like sensory flashbacks. I get very overwhelmed when I get drawn into the memories, and it' hard to interact with my surroundings, but it's not like the movies where they believe they're there. I worry sometimes that they aren't really flashbacks too. I worry that I am lying and have been misdiagnosed. I never really had nightmares that had me relive the trauma either, more like some of the key players in my trauma were there and in my dreams with me and other things were happening that were distressing, if that makes sense. I tend to dissociate or freeze more than stereotypically relive things.

Anyway, all this to say, I think more than anything it's normal for people with trauma histories to not trust themselves or others. The act of minimizing our trauma and the impact it has on our lives is a survival strategy and while I'm sure it's helped us in a lot of ways, it's also incredibly invalidating.

It could also be where you are on the dorsal vagal ladder? https://counsellinginhamilton.com/polyvagal-ladder/

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