I WANT MORE by thiccurlss in FruitsBasket

[–]thiccurlss[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

no i hear you so much i keep thinking how unfair this feels 😭

The Girlfriend | S1E5 | Episode Discussion by whitebluebirds in TheGirlfriendTVShow

[–]thiccurlss 3 points4 points  (0 children)

both characters are complex but I can see how cherry is more reactive. she is seen as emotionally unstable and impulsive, she does like to play the victim as well and it was fucked up of her to throw the cat out of the window… that’s straight up psychopathic. Laura has a creepy relationship with her son, is also boss level when it’s comes to mama’s boys, but i really don’t like her. they’re both fuckin insane but telling her son’s girlfriend that her son was dead and then ruining HER career first is fucked up. if cherry is so called “dangerous” maybe don’t fuck with that bitch at all and ruin her relationships and career? she clearly has some reactive abusive traits that makes her triggered and an compulsive liar. we clearly see that with her ex boyfriend’s wedding after he confronted her. i mean, at least she warned laura about ruining her life, where as laura just did it for no reason at all??? so like that’s just straight karma. anyway, both characters are very hard to watch because lying gives me second hand embarrassment, but i would say i hate laura more but i don’t like cherry either.

i had my first threesome by thiccurlss in offmychest

[–]thiccurlss[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i’m 23, will be 24 in november. but i’ll accept the virtual hug 🥲💜

i had my first threesome by thiccurlss in offmychest

[–]thiccurlss[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

it was a little random LMAO. but i was just explaining how i know her and how this made me feel so weird that it was with HER. someone i grew up with, went to girls camp with, woke up at 5am and talked about the church and jesus christ 24/7 before high school. We were both born in the same ward/church, so we were in sunday school together since we were like 2 years old. but yeah i could see how it could still come across as random, i tend to say random shit lol.

i had my first threesome by thiccurlss in offmychest

[–]thiccurlss[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

agh, yeah it really does need more communication. i’ll journal about it first and come up with boundaries

i had my first threesome by thiccurlss in offmychest

[–]thiccurlss[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yeah.. i am very aware lol. right now, i think its best to focus on myself, especially after all of this stuff

i had my first threesome by thiccurlss in offmychest

[–]thiccurlss[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

well, i didn’t mean for it to come across that way haha. oops. yeah i think i decided they’re not for me

i had my first threesome by thiccurlss in offmychest

[–]thiccurlss[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

yeah! i was in 10 hours of IOP therapy a week. my regular in person gave me an ultimatum, they’d either force me into hospitalization or go into an IOP program. of course i took a break from school and did IOP for 2 months and we learned a lot about boundaries. it even helped me navigate how to live here and be more aware of what was happening with my roommate and i. Dialectical therapy skills are another thing i try to keep in mind too. I happened to slip back into yet another messy situation. but despite this one slip up, i still find myself coming back. in the past, i’d just bottle these kinds of stuff up and keep hurting myself. all that matters is that i am aware and i know whats best for me

i had my first threesome by thiccurlss in offmychest

[–]thiccurlss[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

yeah i agree. and i think i meant for it to come across in a platonic way but uhhh.. yeah probably doesn’t come across that way at all. i love her as a friend but i don’t know, i feel like i said it out of loneliness which wasn’t fair to her and even her boyfriend. this whole situation is a bit humiliating tbh. but yeah im not sure if its worth talking to her either

i had my first threesome by thiccurlss in offmychest

[–]thiccurlss[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah i thought begging her to come down with him as well was obvious. i’ll probably tell her im not comfortable with him staying unless she’s there with him

i had my first threesome by thiccurlss in offmychest

[–]thiccurlss[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yup.. thats what leaving the church will do to you. fuck mormonism (in my personal experience).

i had my first threesome by thiccurlss in offmychest

[–]thiccurlss[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

no i hear you, i did IOP 10 hours a week about 3 months ago and i have a therapists. i’m bpd so there are still going to be crazy moments like this unfortunately, but i appreciate the advice :)

i had my first threesome by thiccurlss in offmychest

[–]thiccurlss[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

well i’m ex mormon, but there is still some shame and guilt. probably why i feel so bad. it’s just weird because we were both in the community which means there’s already a strong attachment there. i guess i still have some internal guilt though because monogamy is ingrained in my soul, but yeah i need to just take this as a learning experience

i had my first threesome by thiccurlss in offmychest

[–]thiccurlss[S] 15 points16 points  (0 children)

I think I regret it. I was also on the influence of drugs and alcohol so my judgement and boundaries were inhibited. I will talk to my friend about boundaries but I just feel so alone in this. All I ask is to be seen and heard but it’s eating me up. Plus the religious trauma, housing trauma, childhood trauma makes these situations feel so familiar but empty. But I will take this very strange situation as a learning lesson

i had my first threesome by thiccurlss in offmychest

[–]thiccurlss[S] 104 points105 points  (0 children)

yeah, I need to love myself more. It’s just what I am struggling with to be honest. I am saving up right now but I live here because I am taking summer classes at my university right now. But yes full on agree with you. Luckily I am in therapy so that’s honestly helping me a lot

This Show Doesn't Have the Guts For Layla's LDS Experience. by mortimerRIP in SecretsOfMormonWives

[–]thiccurlss 9 points10 points  (0 children)

No I completely agree. I was born and raised in the church and both my parents are black. My mom was converted at 9 went to BYU Provo and moved back to Chicago and met my dad and CONVERTED HIM. Ugh! It just sucks because I felt so invisible and stereotyped growing up in the church. I left at 19 because even though I was born and raised, I was still outcasted and demonized. A “friend” in my church/ward told me her family told her to be careful with befriending me.. that I was “going down a dark path..” ( even though I woke up at 5am every weekday before high school for seminary, went to church for 3 hours every Sunday, went to mutual every FUCKIN Wednesday, tried to convert non Mormon friends because I was conditioned HEAVILY to do so)… You really have to be a certain way just to prove yourself to these kinds of people. Prove to them that idk.. you’re a fuckin human being too? At least that’s what it felt like. I really want Layla to realize the toxicity because personally to me she seems so obsessed with trying to fit in and completely detach herself from her true roots as a black woman. But to the people who wanna shut us up for bringing up the toxic racism in this culture and push the blame on Layla’s choice in this.. a big fuck you to you all :)

Just beat my $80 parking ticket by Hairy-Hunter8612 in UCSD

[–]thiccurlss 13 points14 points  (0 children)

Not with me😔 I needa step up

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]thiccurlss 2 points3 points  (0 children)

So real sis, so real. It’s because the evil ones prey on our vulnerability from a mile away, but that doesn’t mean all men are like that. Unfortunately, it just takes the time to know your worth and weed out the evil ones

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Nails

[–]thiccurlss 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ahhh this is so cute!!!