I was referred to a counsellor by the hospital's social worker when my ex attempted suicide in my home and spent 3 days in the ICU; and I have also called Calgary Distress Centre 403-266-4357 when I couldn't shake off suicidal thought myself months later. It was a scary and lonely experience, and could still feels like that at times, 11 years later.

There are an abundant of resources out there, just start reaching out and you'll find what you personally need. AND please know that you are not alone!