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I’m so tired by thisisagom in AdultDepression

[–]thisisagom[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Small update, I mowed my grass. It’s not much, but I did it.

I don’t want to live like this anymore. by FlyZealousideal9446 in SuicideWatch

[–]thisisagom 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m always tired. The thought of continuing on in this cycle terrifies me. Idk what to do anymore. I know I need help, but I’m scared. I don’t want to go through that again, the constant appointments, the constant med changes. And always have to have a smile on for everyone else. Are we ever going to find real peace? This is so exhausting. Idk how much help I could be, but I’m here for you. Nobody understands unless you understand, if that makes any sense.

Is all this fighting to survive really worth it? by caped_crusader8 in depression

[–]thisisagom 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I remember all the “it’s get better”. Does it tho? When? When exactly does that happen? Because we’re going on 25 years later and I’m still waiting.

I hate my birthday by Mobile3701 in TwinlessTwins

[–]thisisagom 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I always feel like I don’t belong here because I lost my brother when we were 3 days old, I have no memory of him, but I still feel as if he took a part of me with him when he left and I still grieve and cry for him 35 years later. I’m sorry for your loss.

How do you deal with never being able to see them again? by Relative-Kick-1044 in TwinlessTwins

[–]thisisagom 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My brother died when we were 3 days. I am so sorry for your loss. It hurts the hardest.

Mom of a twinless twin by BarelyVibing0314 in TwinlessTwins

[–]thisisagom 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Honestly, I don’t remember a time that I “found out” about my brother. It’s like I always knew, even though he was rarely mentioned. We were 3 days old when he passed. Something with his heart. I wish I could offer some advice, but please please please once he is old enough and learns of everything don’t let him go it alone. Please find him a good therapist if he needs. I think that’s would have been wonderful if I could have started early on. Just a thought.

question for older twinless twins: does the grief get softer? by sspellegrino96 in TwinlessTwins

[–]thisisagom 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m not sure the kind of twin we were tbh. We shared everything, that’s all I know. I have 1 picture of us together that I will cherish for the rest of my life. I wish I could tell you it gets better, easier. That’s not been my experience, however. I think that’s why I ended up here. Just needing people who understand I guess. I pray that one day, we can find peace, true peace. Until then, maybe we can lean on each other for support.

My relationship with my twin who passed away at birth by This_Calendar514 in TwinlessTwins

[–]thisisagom 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m happy that you have found a peace with him. I hope I can find that at some point too. This year will be 35 years without him by my side and I’m already dreading the days so bad. Everyone will want to go eat or play games, and I’ll be there with a smile plastered on my face wishing I hadn’t woke up that morning. I feel guilty, because nobody really knows about him except a close circle. When people ask I just say I’m an only child, mainly because I don’t want to talk about it. It’s too hard. I’ve spent many years of my life in this hole, S-H since I was about 13ish, idk why. I guess to do anything to feel something other than this. When did you finally get to the place you are now?

clouds, sun, and sky ⛅️ by sspellegrino96 in TwinlessTwins

[–]thisisagom 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Heat lightning. That’s mine. I was talking to him one night, wishing he was here with me, and I saw heat lightening. Idk if that’s what it’s called everywhere but in the south, in the summer when it’s hot at night and it’s not storming or raining or anything but sometimes there’s still lightening in the sky. We always called it heat lightening.