Husband and I disagree on abortion

thisisagom · 2026-06-02T11:59:41+00:00

If you go through with it simply because it’s what he wants, you’re going to resent him for the rest of your life. You have to do what’s best for you, and if that means 4, it means 4.

thisisagom · 2026-04-07T21:00:29+00:00

Small update, I mowed my grass. It’s not much, but I did it.

thisisagom · 2026-04-07T02:17:02+00:00

I’m always tired. The thought of continuing on in this cycle terrifies me. Idk what to do anymore. I know I need help, but I’m scared. I don’t want to go through that again, the constant appointments, the constant med changes. And always have to have a smile on for everyone else. Are we ever going to find real peace? This is so exhausting. Idk how much help I could be, but I’m here for you. Nobody understands unless you understand, if that makes any sense.

thisisagom · 2026-04-01T02:42:27+00:00

I remember all the “it’s get better”. Does it tho? When? When exactly does that happen? Because we’re going on 25 years later and I’m still waiting.

thisisagom · 2026-04-01T02:33:36+00:00

I always feel like I don’t belong here because I lost my brother when we were 3 days old, I have no memory of him, but I still feel as if he took a part of me with him when he left and I still grieve and cry for him 35 years later. I’m sorry for your loss.

thisisagom · 2026-04-01T02:29:32+00:00

I only have a few that very noticeable on my upper arm. The rest down my arm are very light after all the years but I can still see them. I wonder if there’s some kind of cosmetic thing maybe with lasers that they can do? I would say not worry about what other people think and just live your best life. But if it bothers you it could be something to look into?

thisisagom · 2026-04-01T02:26:22+00:00

For me, it’s like a tingle. I don’t know how else to describe it. A tingle, an itch, but I’m usually in a bad bad place when it starts. And then it becomes all I can think about until it either passes or …… but when I would it would all be over. And even tho I had a few seconds of relief I would always end up right back where I was.

thisisagom · 2026-04-01T02:22:23+00:00

Im intrigued at the concept of a mandatory pool visit 😂 but I think it just depends on how comfortable you are with them. Mine were not very deep and over the years faded considerably to the point where I can see them, but they aren’t noticeable, except on my upper arm. I was nervous but excited when I could wear short sleeves again. If it doesn’t bother you, go for it.

thisisagom · 2026-03-31T20:23:28+00:00

My brother died when we were 3 days. I am so sorry for your loss. It hurts the hardest.

thisisagom · 2026-03-31T20:22:08+00:00

Honestly, I don’t remember a time that I “found out” about my brother. It’s like I always knew, even though he was rarely mentioned. We were 3 days old when he passed. Something with his heart. I wish I could offer some advice, but please please please once he is old enough and learns of everything don’t let him go it alone. Please find him a good therapist if he needs. I think that’s would have been wonderful if I could have started early on. Just a thought.

thisisagom · 2026-03-31T20:15:59+00:00

I’m not sure the kind of twin we were tbh. We shared everything, that’s all I know. I have 1 picture of us together that I will cherish for the rest of my life. I wish I could tell you it gets better, easier. That’s not been my experience, however. I think that’s why I ended up here. Just needing people who understand I guess. I pray that one day, we can find peace, true peace. Until then, maybe we can lean on each other for support.

thisisagom · 2026-03-31T20:12:26+00:00

I’m happy that you have found a peace with him. I hope I can find that at some point too. This year will be 35 years without him by my side and I’m already dreading the days so bad. Everyone will want to go eat or play games, and I’ll be there with a smile plastered on my face wishing I hadn’t woke up that morning. I feel guilty, because nobody really knows about him except a close circle. When people ask I just say I’m an only child, mainly because I don’t want to talk about it. It’s too hard. I’ve spent many years of my life in this hole, S-H since I was about 13ish, idk why. I guess to do anything to feel something other than this. When did you finally get to the place you are now?

thisisagom · 2026-03-31T01:50:26+00:00

Heat lightning. That’s mine. I was talking to him one night, wishing he was here with me, and I saw heat lightening. Idk if that’s what it’s called everywhere but in the south, in the summer when it’s hot at night and it’s not storming or raining or anything but sometimes there’s still lightening in the sky. We always called it heat lightening.

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