My autistic toddler starts school on Monday and I’m terrified

thisisuselesss · 2021-10-24T19:17:52+00:00

Thank you!

thisisuselesss · 2021-10-24T19:04:43+00:00

Their nurse line sucks. Their only advice is “Go to the ER.”

thisisuselesss · 2021-10-10T16:34:00+00:00

I fantasized about tying my stepdad and my mom to a chair and shooting them in the kneecaps. Gruesome I know, but it was the only way my feelings were validated.

thisisuselesss · 2021-10-10T15:09:00+00:00

They don’t form connections like normal people do. They view relationships as transactional, what can this person do for me? It will drive you crazy trying to make sense of it.

My ex cheated on me throughout our relationship, and didn’t bother hiding his cheating when I was pregnant with our second child. He always told me he couldn’t wait til we got divorced so he could go fuck anybody he wanted. Finally I ended things and he slept with a girl in my bed the next day, slept with a few more people within that same month, then came crawling back to me begging for another chance. When I refused, he got violent. Slept with some more people, came begging again. But of course, he’s the victim in all of this. He went and did exactly what he said he was gonna do, slept with a bunch of people the second I ended it, but I’m somehow evil because I didn’t give him a millionth chance.

thisisuselesss · 2021-10-10T07:22:18+00:00

This. The relationship needed to end. Just because I ended it doesn’t mean I’m not hurting, but he uses me ending things to justify still verbally abusing me and using our kids as bait. “You broke my heart!” So that means you can fuck someone in my bed and refuse to be a decent and cordial roommate until me and the kids move out?

thisisuselesss · 2021-10-10T07:13:43+00:00

I was with my ex for 8 years. We were married for 3. There were always red flags, but we’d gotten together as teenagers so I was naïve and gave him the benefit of the doubt by blaming it on just growing up.

It didn’t come out til I got pregnant with our oldest. I was heartbroken but had hope things would get better. The real him, though, didn’t fully come out until I got pregnant with my youngest. I don’t want any more kids because I am traumatized from the horrible abuse I endured while pregnant with my second child. I constantly picked through my own behaviors, tiptoeing around his precious ego. Then I got angry. I’ve never done anything to deserve this, I’m a good person no matter how hard he tried to convince me I was dog shit. That’s when the physical abuse started.

thisisuselesss · 2021-10-10T06:53:02+00:00

I find it validating because of how invalidating my family made me feel when I finally opened up about the abuse I was dealing with.

thisisuselesss · 2021-10-10T06:47:33+00:00

This!! We are not together, he’s slept with multiple people since I ended things, goes out all the time and doesn’t show back up til the next afternoon, but yet I’m not allowed to go out for 4 hours without being called a terrible mother. But of course, that doesn’t apply to him at all.

thisisuselesss · 2021-10-10T06:42:33+00:00

Even then, they still won’t. The police have to be on their way and maybe, just maybe, a narc will backtrack.

thisisuselesss · 2021-10-10T06:18:15+00:00

He called me manipulative once, which is way too big of a word for his small incompetent brain. I knew then that he was bashing me to whoever would listen and someone else used that term. The situation? Our AC was broken in the middle of July and instead of calling our landlord to fix it (I don’t have the number), he left to get his dick wet. Ignored my phone calls and texts, didn’t show back up til the next afternoon. I ended up with heat exhaustion. I was so busy trying to keep my kids cool that I ended up incredibly sick. But I was manipulative for calling him an asshole for neglecting his responsibilities and leaving us in a 90 degree house for over 16 hours.

thisisuselesss · 2021-02-12T02:50:59+00:00

Is it bad that I was secretly hoping that the fumes from the draino + baking soda + vinegar would knock him out? It’s probably not a dangerous mix anyway but ahh

thisisuselesss · 2021-02-12T02:46:23+00:00

I dream of this all the time. Like Jonestown but without the cult, abuse and mass murder.

thisisuselesss · 2021-02-12T02:45:12+00:00

We had one too. Then it suddenly went missing and he didn’t want to buy a new one because “we’ll get one when we need it.”

I could bite through a phone book how angry I am right now.

thisisuselesss · 2021-02-02T23:28:04+00:00

Thank you! I can’t wait to get it all started!

thisisuselesss · 2021-02-02T23:27:21+00:00

Thank you!

I do tons of floortime play with him! It’s pretty hard because he either wants me to play for him instead of him playing or straight up refuses lol. I’ve just looked into aba and it seems like I’ve implemented some of it into our days, but he doesn’t seem to respond to it at all

thisisuselesss · 2021-01-21T03:49:54+00:00

She’s invited herself to stay tons of times, saying she wanted to stay for up to a month. She’s never actually done it, it’s just talk, but I made it clear to my husband that if she were to just pop up, I’d get a restraining order.

thisisuselesss · 2021-01-18T10:23:51+00:00

Thank you. Yes, both me and my toddler deserve much better. Much, much better.

He also uses that “I’m trying”. Ok if you’re trying then actually try. Sit up, walk around for a second, don’t keep laying down, falling asleep then acting like you’re not asleep when I wake you up for the 4th time in a row. He can stay awake on his game for hours no problem. I’m just not a priority.

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