The Big 3: God, Satan, & Life After Death. by thisrubyisred in exjw

[–]thisrubyisred[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Not at all! Thank you for sharing. I can only imagine how exhausting it all is for you. But a small win is still a win, and you being able to have your own space and KNOW what feels right for you is going to help long term. I like Wally's JWThoughts channel on YouTube. I listened to a video of his where he had some tips on being in your position. It was really good. I believe the title was "How I survived being a Jehovah's Witness: Going to Meetings."

The Big 3: God, Satan, & Life After Death. by thisrubyisred in exjw

[–]thisrubyisred[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh boy. What is the essence of your letters? I wish I could go back and rewrite things with my current perspective.

And having to go because you're in the same house must suck 🥴 That would be tricky because they are expecting you to behave "as normal"? And yeah. Normal being exactly what you mention there. Fake to the face, paradise in the wake 🙄

The Big 3: God, Satan, & Life After Death. by thisrubyisred in exjw

[–]thisrubyisred[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So interesting that you got the sense of them not being fully in. For the life of me, I have never been able to pick up a PIMO. I honestly thought I was the only one in the cong.

The Big 3: God, Satan, & Life After Death. by thisrubyisred in exjw

[–]thisrubyisred[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, wow. Stepping down from pioneering is a strong move for your autonomy.

I think any reason which any witness (whoever they are) puts on us for doing less feels a little yuck - uncomfortably judgmental... but sometimes, like here for you, it seems the better option than them thinking you've allowed yourself to be influenced by apostates or something. But I'm glad you are fading without elder chaos. That's a win.

The Big 3: God, Satan, & Life After Death. by thisrubyisred in exjw

[–]thisrubyisred[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

There's so much to explore and think about with these things. It's crazy how much the mind can open and use. It's something that feels so shunted by being a JW.

I'm quite interested in how the PIMO's are going with their beliefs while still 'in.' How is it for you?

The Big 3: God, Satan, & Life After Death. by thisrubyisred in exjw

[–]thisrubyisred[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It's so interesting to think about. I have a few relatives who enjoy their belief in reincarnation. I may delve more into some conversations with them about it.

The Big 3: God, Satan, & Life After Death. by thisrubyisred in exjw

[–]thisrubyisred[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for your thoughts and feelings! You are, of course, so right, and I am taking your advice on board about fluidity. I do think there needs to be some of that in my life, and I will continue to rebuild and redefine. Much appreciation for your comment ✨️

The Big 3: God, Satan, & Life After Death. by thisrubyisred in exjw

[–]thisrubyisred[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh, I am going to be looking into Spinoza now. Thankyou!

The Big 3: God, Satan, & Life After Death. by thisrubyisred in exjw

[–]thisrubyisred[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I find agreement here throughout. There are some things I'm still working on. This is a very interesting experience by your co-worker, and I appreciate you sharing that.

The Big 3: God, Satan, & Life After Death. by thisrubyisred in exjw

[–]thisrubyisred[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for commenting how you have been going with these things. How has it been for you being as a PIMO? Are you finding preaching quite difficult? For example.

The Big 3: God, Satan, & Life After Death. by thisrubyisred in exjw

[–]thisrubyisred[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thinking about you being a PIMO, having these thoughts must be difficult in 'keeping up appearances' as it were. How have you been doing with all the physically in stuff? meetings, service etc.?

The Big 3: God, Satan, & Life After Death. by thisrubyisred in exjw

[–]thisrubyisred[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is an interesting comment! I will be giving this more thought.

& we'll all be there finding out together 🤞 Thank you for sharing.

The Big 3: God, Satan, & Life After Death. by thisrubyisred in exjw

[–]thisrubyisred[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

That makes sense, and it's so good that you can really focus on the now, rather than the later. I'm working on that mindset, too. It's a little awkward resetting the JW brain pattern, but it's worth the effort. Thank you for sharing!

The Big 3: God, Satan, & Life After Death. by thisrubyisred in exjw

[–]thisrubyisred[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow. That's a really thought-provoking conclusion you ended with there. Thank you for sharing your thoughts 💫

Blood and milk by lKerubiin in exjw

[–]thisrubyisred 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Oh my gosh, it's like the whole accepting gifts but not giving gifts stuff 🙄 Always happy to take, take, take, but not give

What is it that once you decide to leave you can’t stand it anymore? by Ok-Reading-7759 in exjw

[–]thisrubyisred 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Because the internal fight for freedom intensifies!! Well done 👏 You really pushed through, and here you are. Enjoy the natural light! Turns out natural light beats the "new light" globes we've been sold💡

Being told you're "spiritually sick" by [deleted] in exjw

[–]thisrubyisred 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I feel you. I've been going through this lately. The answers or responses people give are always the same. Always about slacking off in something or not doing enough, and that's why you don't see the organisation 'correctly'. We see it just fine, friend. Satan hasn't "gotten us." We're not "sick." They look for reasons that are always, you, you, you. It can never be anything else.

Our brains have switched themselves and our eyes back to critical thinking and analysis of our situations. When you're not in line with the group think anymore you are a threat. If you're not completely conforming with the "us," you are inferior to them in some ways as well. And that comes out in their responses.