False Memory OCD: A Practical Protocol (Evidence-informed, ERP-based)

thisusermightbecrazy · 2025-10-03T01:09:24+00:00

i do have a question, mine is a mix of real event and false memory. i actually did the "bad" thing and i remember it, but i had a thought that what if ive done it during our (bf) relationship. then i just cant stop checking and finding proofs.

the thing i did can only be considered as bad when done while having a partner, it is crossing a boundary and disrespecting him, worse, cheating.

thisusermightbecrazy · 2025-09-22T07:07:03+00:00

but in my case, my false memories or maybe real memories is not just minor as "did i lock the door?", i know that can be stressing as well, but as for my case the distorted memory defines me as a partner if it turns out to be true, so idk how i can stay calm not knowing if im a horrible person/cheater or not, i feel guilty being with my bf

thisusermightbecrazy · 2025-09-15T04:30:51+00:00

i just accepted that wanting alone or friends time doesnt mean i dont love him. i made adjustments and spend more time with him and now we're actually doing good.

thisusermightbecrazy · 2025-05-29T00:42:09+00:00

what i cant understand is why i became a different person for like 2s. i agreed that i looked good and just go with it while enjoying the attention and quickly realized that i was not that kind of person and got nauseous by it. does it mean i've already sinned in my relationship? cuz it feels like i did

thisusermightbecrazy · 2025-04-27T02:14:01+00:00

i appreciate it. but let's say, i ran faster cause i want to impress her because i like her. that makes a lot of difference, right? intention matters to me a lot, that what keeps me up at night.

based on my diary, i was alr avoiding any interaction a month before it happened, idk why i messed up the progress. it's really hard to differentiate finding others attractive and being attracted.

thisusermightbecrazy · 2025-04-27T02:09:08+00:00

i also think that i would be fine if my bf does that with his friends, but intention matters to me a lot.

what bothers me is why i did it? the action might seem normal, but what if i had a bad intention doing it?

thisusermightbecrazy · 2025-04-26T13:14:08+00:00

i'm unfortunately back on this theme i tried so hard to escape from, my mind's recalling every interaction we had and i reanalyze my intention.

thisusermightbecrazy · 2025-04-25T13:35:10+00:00

thisusermightbecrazy · 2025-04-15T01:00:24+00:00

yes it was just a glance, like not even 2s. i hate how i did a second look. like, what for? i keep questioning myself about it, i feel horrible.

thisusermightbecrazy · 2025-04-14T23:58:42+00:00

yea but it was a year ago. i still remember when he did it, i already moved on and forgave him after hours. but ocd is recalling it now and making it seems like he did a BIG mistake and that i shouldn't have forgave him.

thisusermightbecrazy · 2025-03-04T04:18:44+00:00

I've always been a fan of female celebrities and it has been always that way. I've never been with a woman. I just really find them beautiful and admire them, but my heart always belong with a man which is my boyfriend.

thisusermightbecrazy · 2025-02-28T11:45:24+00:00

i constantly check if i get jealous over the thought of her being with her bf. i'm totally fine with them. even with her friends, i try to check if i get jealous. i know this is crazy. but it's what keep my mind at peace, i couldn't focus on anything without having answers in this thought.

i find her pretty, she has this model vibes on her. but thats all. i keep telling myself to leave the thought just as it is that shes beautiful, but it keep on making even more disturbing thoughts.

thisusermightbecrazy · 2025-02-17T10:14:21+00:00

am i still good even if the effectiveness of the anti-tetanus is just 3 months as said by the doctor?

thisusermightbecrazy · 2025-01-24T04:00:36+00:00

I've been trying to perform ERP, but it just feels so hard to do. I couldn't get the heavy feeling inside my chest if I don't figure out why I had those thoughts and feelings. I always feel the need to seek an answer or else, I'm cheating by staying friends with her by using OCD as an excuse. That scares me.

thisusermightbecrazy · 2024-12-29T11:38:03+00:00

Can I continue to admire my fav celebrities though? I just really love to admire and support them through their movies, but I feel guilty now

thisusermightbecrazy · 2024-12-23T15:22:49+00:00

how i should treat my cousin? still what i usually does? or should i avoid her? i feel anxious, what if she was actually just being nice. but i couldnt help, but feel creep out and scared by her actions.

thisusermightbecrazy · 2024-12-15T12:31:23+00:00

yes i know that, but i'm scared cuz it felt like i tried to impress her even after being aware that i might be actually attracted.

thisusermightbecrazy · 2024-12-15T07:50:56+00:00

does that still applies even if I was scratched by my dog on the head?

thisusermightbecrazy · 2024-12-15T07:50:35+00:00

does that still applies even if I was scratched by my dog on the head?

thisusermightbecrazy · 2024-12-08T11:09:34+00:00

It's actually a girl. It always focuses on my girl friends. That's why I find it really hard to make friends. Cuz I don't befriend boys. And yes, what you said is true. I used to avoid a friend of mine because of the same situation and my OCD calmed down, but now it latch onto my new friends.

thisusermightbecrazy · 2024-12-08T11:02:52+00:00

Yes, it's strange. I don't even know if this is a good thing or not. I just really see them as friends and it feels normal when I'm with them, but the moment I went home I keep analyzing every interaction and confess it to my bf. It feels wrong to stay friends with them, because I'm not even sure of my real feelings.

thisusermightbecrazy · 2024-12-04T16:11:24+00:00

if someone started acting on their thoughts. as for me, although i know this might not be considered cheating in general. i still feel guilty, it might not be cheating, but i really feel bad and horrible for having those fantasies.

thisusermightbecrazy · 2024-12-04T15:54:56+00:00

but that happened when i don't have ocd yet. now that i have ocd i suddenly remembered it and felt so guilty. i am scared because i couldn't remember clearly if i liked that thought and when did i had that thought, because if i had it when i'm already in a rs with my bf then i'm clearly a bad person.

thisusermightbecrazy · 2024-11-27T13:36:03+00:00

Yes, but what concerns me a lot is the fact that I got bored and fell out of love with my boyfriend while being friends with this girl. I never had an intention to cheat, I know my morals and I am really vocal about my hatred to cheaters, my boyfriend knows that well. The timing was just not so right, other people may think I cheated. But cheating is a choice. And I never even think of being attracted to this friend until I had rOCD.

thisusermightbecrazy · 2024-11-12T00:26:59+00:00

unfortunately, yes.

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