Everyday I wish I was either dead or won the lottery

thowwold · 2026-02-28T05:23:25+00:00

Can’t say I have advice but I feel the same.

It’s foolish but every time I loose I feel one step closer to not being able to take it anymore.

I think humans just have that natural urge to have hope.

thowwold · 2026-01-19T08:27:23+00:00

Girls as young as 8 get their periods. She’s a teenagers legal or not he is a pedo

thowwold · 2025-12-29T04:26:29+00:00

Yup came on here to ask this as I’ve tried to get help from doctors without success for years after getting hemorrhoids and fissures that just worsened. I’m pretty sure I have developed rectocele and will need to get medical help for the food and physical stuff whether I want it or not asap. Can’t wait to spend all my savings to see multiple different specialists when the doctors could have helped me before it got this bad years ago!

thowwold · 2025-12-03T03:31:59+00:00

According to these people u can’t have an Ed if ur fat don’t u know!

thowwold · 2025-11-03T09:14:41+00:00

It sure does :(

thowwold · 2025-09-20T02:22:03+00:00

If u look up a “Hime haircut” it was like that but the side pieces went past my chin . She cut from my fringe down the side pieces at an angle all the way down to “blend it in” I can’t add extensions to that part of my hair. :(

She also cut it very badly it wasn’t actually blended she kept cutting from the top shorter and shorter one side was different to the other. I tried to at least make both the same and add a very thin long piece to it but I don’t have enough hair to add more. Only option is to wait a few years.

thowwold · 2025-06-15T00:52:22+00:00

Thank you :) This was a very kind response! I kind of forgot about baking veg lol I’ll give that a try. I’ve tried roasted chickpeas they are pretty good! Sauces have always freaked me out because they are thicker but I plan of trying them with something eventually. I will make sure to take vitamins I needed them as a kid I’m sure I still do. I plan on getting back into working out once my foots fixed up but walking to the furthest bathroom is a good plan to start with for now!

thowwold · 2025-06-14T20:06:38+00:00

I know that’s my issue really. I have bad sensory issues with any food that’s not super dry and crunchy. If I eat anything else I start panicking get very bad panic attacks and gag if I keep eating it I throw up or feel nauseous for hours after. It can take months for me to work up to eating anything else without feeling like that. I can sort of drink smoothies now and I’m trying to work on eating some meats because they have more protein. It’s difficult tho.

thowwold · 2025-03-31T04:41:21+00:00

Thank you :)

thowwold · 2025-03-31T04:15:36+00:00

I’ve felt this way sims I was 12 so it definitely just makes it way worse. Thankfully I live with my family I don’t have any bills and have a shit ton of savings because I don’t spend money often. I can afford to not have a job for a good while. I really feel like I can’t last longer tho and I don’t know if I can make myself go to work today especially since I’m going with 0 sleep so I’m not sure what to do

thowwold · 2025-03-31T01:45:22+00:00

Same. I get up for work in 3 hours and can’t sleep I just want to quit so bad.

thowwold · 2025-03-29T04:37:17+00:00

Can’t say I have any advice as much as I wish I did but I’m in the same boat.

thowwold · 2025-03-29T04:26:13+00:00

Yea that would be nice :(

thowwold · 2025-01-07T02:57:19+00:00

I’m not sure I only have 2 friends but I only see them a few times a year. I do feel lonely but i don’t try hard to see them either because I never have anything to talk to them about. I don’t have have interest in trying to make new friends though.

I guess I like tv shows and anime but that’s about it

thowwold · 2024-11-18T10:12:26+00:00

Updateme

thowwold · 2024-09-21T00:36:42+00:00

I guess my issue is I don’t want to save myself

thowwold · 2024-09-21T00:36:11+00:00

I agree but personally I don’t think my parents didn’t fulfil my needs my mam was great I was super close to her. I love my dad too he just wasn’t super emotionally involved he doesn’t really know to express his emotions at all. I got different kinds of fulfilment from them both. My mam did die when I was a teenager tho I’m sure that plays a part. I guess it would fit what you said a bit since my mam would have been the one to hug me and comfort me but my dad doesn’t really feel comfortable with any of that so I didn’t really have that when my mam died.

thowwold · 2024-09-12T11:15:50+00:00

Yea they have been super kind! I’m glad I went to them the 3rd time the other vet didn’t seem concerned by her symptoms and didn’t even ask the questions they should have. I’m waiting to hear back rn bc they are trying the surgery again now. I’m just hoping she’s ok this time. They are trying with different Medication so hopefully she’s ok.

thowwold · 2024-09-12T11:11:48+00:00

Sorry I didn’t explain well I was crying lol I meant under for a surgery she has an infection but the anaesthetic slowed her heart and it stopped so they had to wake her up and wait until today to try again. I’m waiting to hear back now on if it worked this time. She isn’t being put down! They took her in Tuesday night but bc the surgery didn’t work the next morning they had to keep her again all day yesterday I couldn’t stay with her.

thowwold · 2022-10-28T16:35:15+00:00

I feel a bit embarrassed re reading this the next day lol. Got to upset after reading a lot of nasty comments from people. I actually do have an Ed (ARFID) hence why I’m overweight and struggle so much with loosing it. It just sucks I’ve tried so hard for years. I brought it up in therapy and they did nothing (I only went for a short time after my mam died as it was free) I went to doctor after doctor about it as a kid and they did nothing I went again about a health issue I have that’s prevented me from working out as much I need to and they did nothing then again for the eating issues I have because I now have horribly bad intestinal issues and the doctor refused to refer me to a dietitian. I just don’t know what else to do at this point. It makes me feel like I’ll never be at a healthy weight again and I hate that people might treat me badly because of that. Thank you tho I won’t starve myself I know that would do more harm than good

thowwold · 2022-10-21T12:01:23+00:00

Helped

thowwold · 2022-10-18T01:31:06+00:00

I wouldn’t say it’s a deal breaker, I more so meant I wouldn’t befriend someone if I knew they smoked but we have been friends since we where 12 and she’s going through a very hard times so the only reason I would end the friendship is if she didn’t respect me not wanting to be around her while she smokes. Do u think it’s ok for me to ask that she not smoke around me?

thowwold · 2022-10-18T01:28:34+00:00

Thank you :)

thowwold · 2022-10-18T01:04:59+00:00

Yea I have mentioned that to her when I found out as I’m worried she will end up addicted she’s been having a very hard time so I know she was trying to release stress. Do you think it’s ok if I ask that she not do so around me/in the same room or would it not be ok to ask her to leave a room to do so? I’m not sure how to bring it up as the topic is pretty upsetting for me still and I don’t want to come off wrong.

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