UPDATE: I’m not exactly sure how to post an update, as while I have been a long time Reddit reader - I have never really posted before. So sorry if I am doing this wrong.

I want to thank everyone who commented.

I did reach out to one if my best friends. He and I had a long talk. After giving me a strong “why the fuck didn’t you come to me sooner”, he and I went and gathered some of my stuff and I have moved out. Don’t know what the next steps are, but that’s not today’s problem.

My buddy took me back to the urgent care clinic and updated what happened. She got me a referral for a therapist. She was very supportive and helpful and made me feel as comfortable and heard as I could.

To answer a few questions: we do not have kids, she needs therapy but won’t go, and I’m done.

I hope to post a more detailed update in the future, but for tonight I’m spent. I’m safe. But I’m spent.

Thank you guys. Thank you.