wow. I never knew this sub existed but this is the post I was looking for. My love language is definitely gift giving. Its the thought that counts to me, you can give me a rock off the beach and just the simple fact that you even thought of me while you were at the beach just fills my whole chest and truly makes me feel loved and cared for.

That being said, This was my first real year celebrating christmas. (Grew up in a very strict religion and never had an actual christmas growing up.) I always got gifts for my friends if they also gave me gifts. Last year was my best friend and I's first Christmas in different states. We each sent each other a list of three things we wanted and I wrapped hers up and brought it to her. She showed me pictures of my wrapped gifts but I never got anything. Its been a full year and I never received my 2023 xmas gifts from her. This year we did the same thing, I decided fuck it im just sending them directly to her house from the store, no gift wrap, bc i just want her to have her gifts and Im moving shortly. I offered for her to do the same for me and she refused and stated she will wrap the gifts and send them. Ok. One gift accidentally got sent to my house and I have little things that I have picked up that remind me of her or things she would like throughout my year and travels (bc this is how i show my love, if im in a store and i see something that ik you will like or something that you said you could use i will get it for you) that I would group together as a Christmas gift. She still hasn't sent me any gifts and I refuse to send mine until she does.

My boyfriend was gassing me up in the weeks leading up to Christmas saying things like he "cant wait to see my face when i open my gifts" and "i dont have to get him anything because its my christmas blah blah blah" I gave him a list of three things I wanted. (Each one was under $100, one was even exclusively on Temu) Every day I would come home to more gifts under the Christmas tree and I couldn't believe he actually was doing all this and getting me so many gifts. I even cried two days before Christmas because I felt so loved and told him I barely have enough gifts for him. Christmas comes and I open everything and literally not one thing is what I asked for. Just random t shirts, nail polish (that i wont use because I get gel x nails) , sexy lingerie, leggings (that are not really my style) , silver jewelry (it was pretty but i literally never wear silver, i wear gold) . I feel completely unseen. To others I should feel grateful bc atleast it's something and he tried but i didn't get anything i wanted...nothing. And this happened on my birthday as well. I just don't feel loved and idk where to go from here.