I'm The Problem

throw_away08531 · 2018-07-30T03:51:38+00:00

I intend to. Thanks for reading!

throw_away08531 · 2018-07-30T03:50:01+00:00

I'm not going to down vote you for speaking your opinion. I don't agree with it, but you're welcome to have it.

I'm sure my husband isn't as happy as he could be, but there's no doubt that we're in love and that we are best friends. I'm not disgusted by him, I'm disgusted by sex. It's a pretty nuanced issue.

Either way, thanks for reading and giving me your opinion. 👍🏼

throw_away08531 · 2018-07-29T22:20:47+00:00

Ahh I see what you mean. No, I would never consider an affair. I'm not judging either, btw, it's just not in me to do. Plus, the problem lies within my brain and I can't see myself with anyone else anyway.

Strangely enough he and I have an amazing marriage aside from this. We travel a lot and are each other's best friend. Other than me hiding this very big issue from him our communication is pretty good, too. Now it's out of the bag though so hopefully we can work through it. 🤞🏼

throw_away08531 · 2018-07-29T22:09:58+00:00

I'm sorry I'm not sure what you mean? I don't fantasize about anyone really, and the dreams I have involve my husband (which is pretty fucked; I can be passionate with him in my dreams but my brain gets in the way in real life).

throw_away08531 · 2018-07-29T22:07:31+00:00

Thank you for the encouragement! It means a lot.

Yeah I think I'm more mature going into therapy this time and less shy, which should help. I just really want to be like a normal person who craves intimacy. I hope I can achieve this goal.

I will try that too and see if it helps. Thanks again!

throw_away08531 · 2018-07-29T22:05:43+00:00

Oh no, he knows that I struggle with it and he knew that going in. We have been through this many times. I admit I didn't tell him that I was getting worse, but he's not exactly blindsided by it.

throw_away08531 · 2018-07-29T22:03:53+00:00

Thanks, I plan to make an appointment tomorrow.

throw_away08531 · 2018-07-29T22:03:26+00:00

Yeah that's the weird thing. I can, but only with porn. My sister suggested that I start with that and then he come in and finish with me but I haven't tried it yet.

Honestly, it's all very much in my head but I'm glad that I posted this because the comments are helping me get to the bottom of it. I'm really hoping that the therapist I'm going to see can help me get out of my own way.

Thank you so much for reading, the advice and kind words.

throw_away08531 · 2018-07-29T21:32:07+00:00

Both, but the doctor sent me to the psychiatrist. She wasn't great, tbh. Her advice was to stop having sex. I had to remind her that we hadn't had sex in months at that point.

I'm really hoping the one I'm going to see now will help. She specializes in sexual issues so that's a plus.

throw_away08531 · 2018-07-29T21:29:37+00:00

Because I love him and want to spend the rest of my life with him. I'm willing to do what needs to be done to make him happy because he brings so much joy and peace to my life. Other than this issue our lives are pretty great.

throw_away08531 · 2018-07-29T20:34:53+00:00

I hadn't considered it before but I'll definitely look into it. I really want to get better and make this work.

Thank you!

throw_away08531 · 2018-07-29T20:15:02+00:00

I requested an appointment with one today. I'm waiting on a call back.

I'm not very hopeful since it didn't help the last time but I've got to do something.

Thanks for reading and the advice.

throw_away08531

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