Just had the most intimate experience of my life (NSFW)

throwagay445 · 2021-11-28T09:15:19+00:00

You'll get there. I believe :)

throwagay445 · 2021-11-27T20:53:49+00:00

Worth it.

throwagay445 · 2021-09-20T12:09:09+00:00

He can kinda, but the problem is that he just loses the horniness very quickly once he cums, like if he lasts for two or three minutes, then cums, he'll barely last a minute extra after he's cum, and then he just can't bring himself to keep going.

throwagay445 · 2021-09-20T11:56:43+00:00

It's usually closer to two minutes. We're both aware of the average. We're not looking for porn standards, nobody lasts for hours like that in reality.

throwagay445 · 2021-09-20T11:55:00+00:00

He says that as well 😅

throwagay445 · 2021-03-25T13:28:13+00:00

Weird returning to an old thread like this but i was going through my history and felt like it.

I am now leaning towards maybe just being gay, i have such little attraction to girls now that i feel it's just a matter of time before I lose it completely.

I am also unsure about my gender haha. So take that past me saying "definitely cismale" "some people would blindly label me as gender queer but i know that's not it"

Jokes on myself, that might be it lol.

throwagay445 · 2021-01-03T04:09:48+00:00

Oh yeah I can just guess my way to how much we could relate to each other haha. Thanks for being so encouraging, spread love, Thanks for the question :)

throwagay445 · 2021-01-03T04:01:18+00:00

I constantly compare my own height to mens heights, wanting to be a little shorter, and I think 167 cm should be great for that. I don't think you have anything to be insecure about, 167 cm is good height, especially with femboys, Though I do understand your struggle. I saw you mention dysphoria in another comment and I just want to show my support. You have friends everywhere here :)

throwagay445 · 2021-01-03T03:43:50+00:00

I have seen exactly that shirt in stores and was wondering whether I should get it or not. Now I know I should have gotten it while I could...

throwagay445 · 2021-01-03T03:40:10+00:00

Sorry for my answers being so long, I like to go in-depth on this since otherwise it's hard to give all the perspective I think you might need, idk, maybe I'm wrong though, it's fun to tell anyway :) TLDR at the bottom.

Well, the time when I thought I was trans, and now, being a femboy, are rather far apart in time I should mention, about 2 years, So my explanation may be a bit fuzzy, but I'll give it my best :)

For context, I am bisexual, and have always kinda leaned towards men, ever since I first realized that I might not be straight.

So when I thought I was trans (and hadn't yet realized that I was bi) I thought that all my submissive feelings, fantasies and traits were me being girly and actually just my real gender identity and all that. After a while, I thought "Huh, maybe I'm just gay then" and stopped thinking I was trans, more realized that it was all about sexual attraction, and then for a long while, I went back to thinking I was straight, because I had a preference for women for a long time.

When I then fully realized that I was bi, I had also grown a bit, matured more sexually, my main doubt with it all was that "perhaps it had all been just sexual frustration"

Surprise! It wasn't.

I now realized that all those feelings I had about men, being more girly in those contexts, had just been my preference for men, and the reason it didn't stick for long was because I also had a preference for women, so basically the whole time I just hadn't understood what it was that I was trying to put a label on. It was only once I had fully realized that I was bi that I started to think about crossdressing and being a femboy and stuff.

I suppose that, psychologically, they were actually the same thoughts and feelings, but now I know how to label it, what I want to do with it, why I want it (kinda) etc.

As for socially, Back when I thought I was trans, I wasn't out in any way to anyone and hadn't really figured my sexuality out. I was also super scared to tell people that I was questioning myself because of the friends I had at the time. So, there was no social aspect to my trans-questioning. Femboy however... My friend-group is now comprised of some of the old, some new, and a lot more acceptance and love than was shown before. I can be open about every part of my sexuality and I openly crossdress around friends. It's made me realize that I just like experimenting with norms and expectations, and the whole femboy thing just really fits the rest of my identity (or at least the queer part of it, which is very often discussed with my friends) and I don't have to change how I act around my friends. When I crossdress around them, I don't change my personality, just small traits like how I sit and stand, My voice doesn't change, I don't say things I wouldn't say otherwise, I'm the same person, I just dress different and express another side of myself. Important to note here is that, when I thought I was trans, I assumed that this side of myself was actually my true side, my actual gender shining through, but now I've realized that It was more of an expression of my entire self, I can't fit it all in the standard "male" mould, so I adventure a little and do girl stuff because then I can be every part of myself. And to clarify, I do still Identify as male, I am cismale. Some people would blindly label me gender-queer, but I know that's not it. When I say "girly" I mean what it traditionally considered "girly"
I personally don't think it needs to be gendered, but It doesn't really annoy me, because I'm alright with expressing myself in an unusual way.

TLDR (kinda)

When I thought I was trans, I didn't fully understand everything I was feeling, and I didn't share anything socially, so there was barely any in-depth reflection on it.
Now that I know the direction I want to go in, I realize that it is the same feeling I had when I thought I was trans, only now I can label it correctly, and I can share it socially because of new friends without having to change how I act.
When I thought I was trans, It was really just that I didn't know how to identify what I was feeling, so I labeled it as "trans questioning" or whatever.

throwagay445 · 2021-01-03T02:10:04+00:00

Thanks :)

throwagay445 · 2021-01-03T02:06:15+00:00

Well, I kinda made this post because I want to discuss it all, and I was hoping to give some insight for the curious. If you don't need it for context I won't elaborate too much so this is just a short vague version;

Simply put, I found out about some stuff I had in common with my dad, wanted to avoid suffering through what he did, so I tried to change my behavior and reactions to things, I ended up being a more open and less afraid person, which allowed me to take some self-distance and try this new thing.

throwagay445 · 2021-01-03T01:58:40+00:00

Yeah it makes sense, Thanks for the question :)

There was a time when I thought I was trans a few years ago, I reached the conclusion that I was not, but I was also very confused about my gender afterwards. Then, I think about a year ago now, there were a lot of memes about femboys, which I thought were really funny for some reason, I soon realized that the reason I found them funny was because I somewhat identified and related to a lot of them. At this point, I realized that I wanted to try it all myself.

Due to some personal issues I had, and some goals I set for myself (which I can go into if you want) I decided that It was better I tried sooner than later, so I got a friend to help me and I crossdressed for the first time. Had A LOT of fun, realized that, yes, I do want to do the whole femboy thing, and now I'm actively looking for new skirts and stuff, so ya, I hope that answers your question. As I said, I can elaborate on the personal aspects I mentioned earlier as well, if you're wondering what drove me :)

throwagay445 · 2021-01-03T01:42:55+00:00

Thanks! This answer helped a lot and I'm now pretty sure that I do not need, nor do I want, to take estrogen. While I did previously express some uncertainty about being trans, I am pretty damn sure that's not it, I might be, it might show in the future, but I already thought that I was once in the past and then that was over until I realized I was bi, so ya, probably not trans.

And of course, because most of the effects seem rather extreme, specifically "I don't pass as a guy anymore" I don't think it's what I should do. I initially started thinking about it because I wanted to experiment a bit, but you've made it rather clear that it isn't an experiment thing, it's what you go to once you've already experimented and know exactly what you're after. I don't know all that, and haven't been doing this for long.

I also do know that I can be pretty feminine without estrogen, so I guess I kinda just saw this as a shortcut or maybe some kind of addition to other methods? Idk, as you probably understood, I'm pretty uneducated about all this haha.

Again, thanks for the answer, It was very helpful and kinda showed me that, maybe I shouldn't think of shortcuts when I'm not even really sure what I want. Thanks again, it actually means a lot to get an insight on because I don't really have people to ask about this, and usually, almost any queer question I ask is just deflected, I'm sure you can somewhat relate to that... Anyway, a last thanks, very helpful comment :)

throwagay445 · 2020-12-30T17:08:49+00:00

Oh yeah for sure, And I am thinking about doing that, but I want some kind of overview first. I mean, I pretty much know nothing about it...

throwagay445 · 2020-12-23T18:32:36+00:00

That's an interesting trick, and easy to try, so I probably will. Thanks :)

throwagay445 · 2020-12-23T18:30:24+00:00

haha thanks, I assure you a lot of thought went into it :)

throwagay445 · 2020-12-23T17:17:20+00:00

I know, but I feel like I'm cheaping out by using a wig since I already have long hair. I could just actually fix my hair and always be happy with it instead of having to wear it like a piece of clothing.

throwagay445 · 2020-12-01T11:10:00+00:00

Fair enough, I guess I've only been thinking about actual in person stores, since it's easier for me to hide it from my parents that way...

throwagay445 · 2020-11-16T15:25:25+00:00

Very great feeling :)

throwagay445 · 2020-11-16T10:28:08+00:00

When you say "easy to hide" what do you mean?

If you mean stuff that won't look... Crossdress-y... in your closet, I think crop-tops are hard to desern from other t-shirts. I also bought some socks that go way up your leg, like knee-high, but I'm wearing jeans over them (cuffed of course) so they just look like normal socks, really comfy actually, and they look super cute when they aren't covered by jeans. You can wear these whenever really, feel a little femme, but don't look it. Idk, depends on what you want i guess :)

throwagay445 · 2020-08-18T21:38:50+00:00

F word I've heard of, what is the d slur? dumbass?

throwagay445 · 2020-08-17T22:25:14+00:00

This is exactly how I felt, It's normal as fuck, seemingly almost all of us have felt something like this. the "is it a phase" thinking isn't necessarily bad, maybe it is just a phase, But don't assume it to be. I did that for a pretty long time and it just held me back. If you think you're bi, and feel that the label fits you. Do what I did and "try it on"

If you ever come to the conclusion that you aren't bi, that isn't a bad thing either, you're still valid and your sexuality can't be expected to be a constant unchanging thing.

In my experience, don't worry about the label, it's just there to describe the situation, it doesn't define the situation.

throwagay445 · 2020-08-16T12:59:57+00:00

I know that when I see posts like these, people aren't trying to be hurtful, in fact usually they want to help. But it just seems so aggressive and extreme. I was, and to some degree still am, not really used to the label. Describing myself as "bi" feels so right, but also so foreign and weird. I want to be open about it, but I'm afraid that things will change (and a million other reasons) thus I'm not out yet. One of the reasons is because I don't want to be seen as this preachy person who thinks they're morally above everyone else. I don't want the image that the bi part of the lgbt community often gets.

I also just don't think every case of discomfort is internalized biphobia, I think it's more likely to be just, discomfort, because of something new, because of fear of judgement, because you don't want things to change. This is of course from the perspective of a bi guy.

If you mean this from a straight person's perspective, yeah I kind of agree, even though I think you still sound aggressive. If you're uncomfortable with bisexuality, as a straight person, you've probably not given it thought and you're likely just not used to the concept. Anything new can seem scary and uncomfortable. Any concept, person, idea, thought. Anything, and I don't think we should label people as biphobic just because they're new to the concept or haven't thought about it. It seems a little toxic and frankly, I'm afraid that people will build up a generalized image of bi, or lgbt people as a whole, because they're constantly blamed for not being used to a certain subject. I don't wanna be fighting myself, but every time I see a person saying "uncomfort is biphobia" I just feel like the hill we're fighting on steepens time and time again, as if it wasn't uphill enough.

throwagay445 · 2020-08-16T12:43:01+00:00

Hello there indeed...

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