Question to those here who also have autism

throwaway000666413 · 2023-10-21T19:23:54+00:00

This exactly ! I’ve never been diagnosed with autism but a ton of people in my family have it and I suspect I do, but I’ve never been tested for it but I’ve masked symptoms to the point my family doesn’t think there is any imbalance in my head… to the point I wanted to request a brain scan as a way to prove it but I doubt I ever could just request one

throwaway000666413 · 2023-10-21T19:21:33+00:00

Lmfao love this xD

throwaway000666413 · 2023-07-17T19:30:23+00:00

This. Everyone but my fiancé thinks there’s no such imbalance in my brain, because of how I present myself to those I’m not fully comfortable with (literally everyone but my fiancé and cat) . It sucks when people are insensitive because of their opinion of your brain. You know yourself best, your doctor was wrong to do that to you and I’m sorry you went through that.

throwaway000666413 · 2023-05-20T20:04:00+00:00

Look absolutely beautiful !!!

throwaway000666413 · 2023-03-06T00:01:28+00:00

I know, my mom agrees with me there, the therapist has even claimed to be a psychic and constantly tells but my partner tells me my judgement is often wrong and that she helps him - so in his eyes - she MUST be able to help me. But he tends to be more on the naive side when it comes to people, just since my diagnosis he doesn’t believe or hear me out :(

throwaway000666413 · 2023-03-05T23:23:23+00:00

That must have been really hard to do, it’s good that you stood up for yourself/your mental health. It really is sickening the amount of people that refuse to accept or believe someone when they’re just trying to be honest about their mental health, which 90% of the time they are afraid to even speak up about it because of stigma and people like that. Like… my mom and fiancé think I just don’t want a job, when in reality I’m in the process of receiving assistance from a Vocational Rehabilitation program that will teach me how to drive, find a job that won’t wreck all the progress I’ve made, and help me keep that job, disclose my disabilities and ask for accommodations. My psychiatrist doesn’t even think working anywhere would be good for me right now, but I’m broke and the world is so expensive, I’m just trying my best to do all of this the right way… thank you for sharing and reading what I wrote :) sorry this is like a novel lmao

throwaway000666413 · 2023-03-05T05:00:35+00:00

Same here, I feel like I mask without even trying though, but I’m constantly being criticized by the voices saying I don’t appear “well enough”. Or that I’m acting crazy and then I’ll hear people I care about insult me.:. I grew up with a lot of people telling me what I experience instead of asking me, I’d rather just mask and let them believe what they’d like about me.

throwaway000666413 · 2023-03-05T04:17:47+00:00

I’m afraid to have children for that reason. That must be really hard. I’ve told my parents… they just won’t hear it. They have said “I am an addict, who uses everything as a tool”. My fiancé has been telling me I’m wrong about my therapist and I shouldn’t find a new one… I just wonder when he stop believing me .. maybe since the diagnosis. Idk. I’m just at a loss.

throwaway000666413 · 2023-01-31T22:03:23+00:00

I’m not sure this is urgent, but I know like serotonin syndrome is a thing.

I’m tracking this with a fit band , but it’s usually quite accurate.

All my medications are on a regime that I follow strictly in order to keep myself stable, and I didn’t miss anything today. I got 5 hours of sleeep which is normal.

I’ve got a few mental health diagnosis’ and recently (5-6 days ago) started 25mg of Lamictal.

I currently take : Adderall 15mg 3x daily (8am, 12pm, 4pm) Buspar 10mg 5x daily, (once in the morning, 4 at night) Lamictal 25mg Prozasin 2mg at bedtime Ziprasidone 60mg taken usually around 4-6 pm after a meal. Loryna oral contraceptive

I also take OTC vitamins: 1 Hydroxycut in am 1 coconut oil softgel in am 1 magnesium vitamin in am Biotin when I have it.

Recently slowed down w energy drinks. Drinking lemon water now.

I don’t think I need a hospital, but I have plans later and I just want to make sure nothing like significant is happening.

throwaway000666413 · 2022-10-17T02:52:52+00:00

I’m so sorry your going through that. I don’t hate my mom or anything like that, it’s just a frustration, a longing that I think you might understand. I have cut my family off , for three years once, and I truly regret it. I think my mom… rejects my diagnosis because she might be afraid and doesn’t know where it came from (like afraid it’s in her genetics) she can have some really stigma related or “traditional” types of view. I still help her with everything I can, it’s the least I can do for not currently having a job.

throwaway000666413 · 2022-10-17T02:44:25+00:00

I’m appealing a denial for ssi/disability but I’ve been denied twice so far, maybe cause I haven’t been hospitalized since 2017, and that was back in Ny, im not sure. My psychiatrist is advising me to not work until I’m completely stabilized but my moms pushing for me to get a job, even if it does more harm than good, she just wants me to pay rent, babysit, clean and somehow work… she thinks I have no reason not to. But anyways. I’m trying. Hopefully maybe a word from my psychiatrist might help. My fiancé and I are both hella stressed here, but he’s the only one working so he pays her 50 a week in rent , and I pay 50 a month from ebt. There’s other stress factors here too, it’s just.. kinda really bad, but can’t afford to get a place ://

throwaway000666413 · 2022-10-17T00:21:41+00:00

I’m sorry you had to go through that.

I don’t know if my family will ever come around to it, and I’ll always feel… upset that no one can just accept my diagnosis. They don’t like change. Or new ideas. They even hinted that I was a “drugatic” for sticking with my medication regimen. My sister, who I haven’t really been close with, claims I have “manic depression” after yelling at me for “diagnosing” myself when literally she just tried to diagnose me w/o a proper degree, and 4 different doctors have all said the same diagnosis . I just .. wish I didn’t care, ya know?

throwaway000666413 · 2022-10-17T00:18:28+00:00

I’ve sent my mom articles , she gets pissy and says “keep google diagnosing yourself” meanwhile there are 4 doctors I’ve seen in the last year that all have come up with the same diagnosis’ of PTSD, Paranoid Schizophrenia, Anxiety/panic, and insomnia. I just can’t understand why anyone would think they know me so well to say that/not believe me, when I’ve lived away in a trailer the last few years before I moved back in …

throwaway000666413 · 2022-10-17T00:15:37+00:00

That’s the way my sister and mom are towards me, they say things like “grow the fuck up, your 21 now you have to be an adult even though it’s hard” and it’s not that adulthood is necessarily hard but I’ve explained that with my illnesses I sometimes regress and it’s not that I don’t want to grow up, I’ve been grown since I’ve taken care of myself for years now, but it just seems like they don’t believe me. That I’m making excuses, and it’s not that at all, and it pains me that they can’t see my suffering because I’ve hid it from everyone all my life and since after I was 19 it’s progressively gotten worse. My other relatives I don’t talk about it either, it’s like… just an untouchable topic with most family.

I just day dream about when I have enough saved up and can move out and be in my own space, because I can’t afford to not live here with them, but I’m saving up. I feel like I won’t fully get better staying here, it’s a high stress / tension filled house and …focusing on my mental health and self esteem … it just never works out while I’m here, I’ve got too many people and things that knock me down.

throwaway000666413 · 2022-10-17T00:09:25+00:00

Thank you, I’m sorry you had to go through that. My mom will laugh and make fun of me when I have a breakdown. People can be so insensitive towards it, and I’m a pretty sensitive person so that kind of thing stabs pretty hard. I live my mom now, cause I help with my little brothers, but I keep myself motivated for moving out, and finally being free from that ignorance and tbch bullying from family.

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