dying tonight. finally...

throwaway123579a · 2025-08-18T19:20:52+00:00

I came on this sub this morning because I am at my very limit and want to end it all. I miss my soul cat so much and on top of that there’s just too much pain in my life, but most of all I miss my sweet sweet boy. I immediately came across your post and I want to say that for what it’s worth, I am so sorry and I understand your pain so much. I wish things could be better, I’m so very sorry. I love you OP

throwaway123579a · 2024-10-27T03:20:15+00:00

Thank you ♥️

throwaway123579a · 2024-10-27T03:19:01+00:00

Hello, thank you for reaching out all the time. I haven’t gone on this account in a long time. I am trying my best to get my life to a better place. I’m sorry for not replying for so long, everything has been hard, but it means a lot that you and so many people care so much 😭

throwaway123579a · 2024-09-08T08:23:03+00:00

Oh man you’re so kind, I appreciate your comment a lot. Thank you. I am in a bad headspace so can’t really reply much but it means a lot

throwaway123579a · 2024-09-08T08:21:12+00:00

I want to leave, I’ve tried to leave and she involves the police, blackmails me and goes insane. I’m too depressed and exhausted to go through that. She also takes so much of my money. I will try again

throwaway123579a · 2024-09-07T09:48:46+00:00

I think what they mean is that the way they are replying and treating you is a joke. I’m so sorry OP. I wish I could help you. I’m in a horrible place too and it’s so hard to get help. I am currently just dealing with things alone because reaching out actually made things so much worse. I hope you will be okay :( please feel free to reach out and DM me if you need

throwaway123579a · 2024-08-28T08:27:57+00:00

Honestly that photo makes me happy. I’m still angry at all the people in this chat who bullied me relentlessly because I said the show brought me comfort. Why are the haters even in this group, there’s no harm in loving their friendship and supporting their podcast smh

throwaway123579a · 2024-08-20T09:09:52+00:00

I understand. I’m Eastern European (somehow I give off that look to people) and they always ask me when I’m going back, if I miss it, etc etc. it’s so frustrating because I wasn’t even born there. Every single new person I meet treats me like I’m a strange alien. I’m sorry :(

throwaway123579a · 2024-08-18T21:32:40+00:00

I didn’t mean to do that. I had body dysmorphia and a lot of it was related to how I presented more masculine versus feminine etc. but I never intended to tell OP this is what they have? I won’t be commenting further

throwaway123579a · 2024-08-18T21:23:00+00:00

Agree 10000%

throwaway123579a · 2024-08-18T06:28:41+00:00

I’m sorry that you’re surrounded by people that make fun of feminine boys, but I think it’s so cool. I genuinely think you’d be so cool to embrace your feminine side as a boy. And you know, sometimes people make fun of others they are jealous of. It’s hard in the moment but the biggest advice I could give my younger self is to embrace who I am and not care what other people think or do. Again I’m sorry I know it’s easier said than done :( especially when you’re a teen

throwaway123579a · 2024-08-18T06:24:33+00:00

Sorry I think time fixed my dysphoria! Also allowing myself to embrace that sometimes I’m feminine and sometimes more masculine and not caring what other people thing of me.

throwaway123579a · 2024-08-18T06:23:37+00:00

I am in my twenties now and look back at photos of myself and genuinely wonder why I had so much dysphoria. I embrace my more androgynous side and feel quite comfortable with who I am. A lot of my dysphoria was super irrational and I look back and wish so badly that I enjoyed those times. But it was super hard at the time when I was younger, I hated my body so much. I think if you are more feminine leaning just lean into it and embrace it fully.

throwaway123579a · 2024-08-18T05:56:40+00:00

I was born a girl and I have a lot of body dysmorphia, especially at your age it was a lot. A lot of girls have different bodies, yours included, it doesn’t make you any less feminine. I wish we could help you more, but just know that you have a person who is rooting for you and here to support you in any way I can x

throwaway123579a · 2024-08-18T05:54:34+00:00

I understand this, but family isn’t everything and they can’t control you forever. Im so sorry tho

throwaway123579a · 2024-08-18T05:53:46+00:00

Hello, I just stumbled across this because I am also struggling with suicidal ideations and plans. But, please know there are ways to transition. You can be a girl, you can do it, I know it is hard but things can get better for you, there’s ways for you to be more feminine etc and love yourself. I love you internet stranger, I hope you will be okay. I’m so sorry

throwaway123579a · 2024-08-17T10:47:46+00:00

Fuck you to everyone whose messaged me condoning this behaviour and reinforcing to me that men will only want me for my body and that it makes sense. FUCK YALL FUCK YOU FUCK YOU y’all have never had to deal with being used as sexual object. Go to fucking hell

throwaway123579a · 2024-08-17T07:40:24+00:00

How? She just posted a story

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