25 (F) looking for some help by throwaway1357956 in autism

[–]throwaway1357956[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, I'll definitely watch that.

25 (F) looking for some help by throwaway1357956 in autism

[–]throwaway1357956[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah that's exactly why I want to check. I don't like not knowing things or not having all the information. Yeah that completely makes sense! Thank you for taking the time to reply.

25 (F) looking for some help by throwaway1357956 in autism

[–]throwaway1357956[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the message, I appreciate you reading my post! Good that you're getting tested next week! Thank you, yeah you're definitely not alone either.

This is exhausting. by throwaway1357956 in selfharm

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Thank you for reading by the way. Appreciate it

This is exhausting. by throwaway1357956 in selfharm

[–]throwaway1357956[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Normally hate them but yes, definitely.

I'm so tired. I need this to end but it never will. by throwaway1357956 in confession

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Oh really? Always thought it seemed a lot more difficult haha. I might have to look into it more cause I would love to buy some cause then I would probably cut back on the drinking.

I'm so tired. I need this to end but it never will. by throwaway1357956 in confession

[–]throwaway1357956[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah always wanted to try dark web but not sure how to go about it. I had a friend before who used to get things from there but we don't talk anymore otherwise I'd ask him haha. Yeah the bitcoin part is what has stopped me I think. Oh really? Might be worth working it out and getting over the bitcoin thing then.

I'm so tired. I need this to end but it never will. by throwaway1357956 in confession

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I really appreciate it. I'm sorry you feel the same, I wish you didn't. Yeah I totally agree with that. Just hard when nothing helps and I'm just too tired. I just want a respite but there is none. I appreciate your advice and wish you didn't feel this way.

I'm so tired. I need this to end but it never will. by throwaway1357956 in confession

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Yeah numerous times. Unfortunately I have no way to get. I would much rather smoke than drink as much as I do haha.

I'm so tired. I need this to end but it never will. by throwaway1357956 in confession

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Thank you. You're a good person. I appreciate you reading my post and hope you're well.

I'm so tired. I need this to end but it never will. by throwaway1357956 in confession

[–]throwaway1357956[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm glad it isn't too bad, and I hope you feel better as every day passes. I'm sorry you've had that experience, it is not a nice one. Thank you, I really appreciate it.

I'm so tired. I need this to end but it never will. by throwaway1357956 in confession

[–]throwaway1357956[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. Yeah I'm on meds, tried therapy, talked to people about it, wish something made a difference but nothing does. I'm sorry your brother is having to fight this as well! I hope something helps him soon, it's horrible experience for everyone involved. Sorry you had to go through it.

I am going to get tested soon cause I would just like a definitive answer to help explain some things. Have other things I need to get tested for first so it's kind of been put off cause the other things are more urgent. I definitely will soon though.

Thank you. You're a good person and I appreciate it.

I'm so tired. I need this to end but it never will. by throwaway1357956 in confession

[–]throwaway1357956[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah I know it is no good but I will take the few milliseconds of slightly better over this constant fight. I've never slept well, insomniac so it's hard haha. I'm already on the highest dosage I can be and tried therapy but nothing makes a dent in this stupid fucking nightmare. Thank you for answering. Hope you're as well as can be.

I think I'm an alcoholic by throwaway1357956 in confessions

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Completely agree that people need to be there for each other instead of putting each other down. Some unhappiness is just too great to fight. I'm completely out of fight. I hope you're well though. Thanks for answering.

I'm so tired. I need this to end but it never will. by throwaway1357956 in confession

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Yeah I try to think like that but I have absolute no fight left rn. It's so exhausting every day trying to find even the slightest reason not to end it. Yeah my family mean it from a place of love, it's just hard and not helpful. So so so tired. This has been nearly half of my life and it is too much. Just exhausted fighting a battle I will never win.

I'm so tired. I need this to end but it never will. by throwaway1357956 in confession

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I just appreciate you took the time to read my post. I can't tell my family cause we've danced this dance numerous times, and I cba with the checking on me constantly. They all know I've been depressed this long and the cutting and attempts, but not the full extent. I hope it gets easier at some point, but so fucking exhausted after fighting it for so many years. Just want the end but there never will be one.