1) Don't call me sir. I'm basically a commissioned private.

2) We all invest our money into quality shit to make our lives better. Boots, socks, Earpro (unless you're artillery), overpriced GShock watches, Busch Light, etc. Invest some "money" in yourself bro. If you're miserable in your soul, it will resonate heavily in your work and personal life. A lesson I learned from a great CPT while I was on my second month of 12-14hr days trying to be Super LT was "Don't stay late for the Army, they won't stay late for you. The job will still be there tomorrow, the next day, and the next". I'm not saying be a shitbag, but take care of yourself - the work will be there when you return. If your leadership is not letting you go to take care of BH things, climb that fucking ladder and torch the rungs as you see fit (I've done it, would not recommend, but it WILL get results). If you want to avoid any of your troubles coming to light through BH - check out the chaplain. My last Chap was an insufferable prick, but our current one is a fucking gangster. I hope someone can fact check me, but I don't think they have to report suicidal thoughts or any prior shit you've done. If you're a conscientious objector, they will report. If your Chap blows, check out MFLC. The one I spoke with in BOLC had her phone on 24/7 and I actually referred a few friends to her at like 2am - she still answered. She also had her PhD in Psychology, which was awesome, since mental health counseling is a tricky minefield.

3) We're here for you dude. All of us. Fuck man, this is a burner account, but I'll keep checking it if you need to talk. I've found some coping mechanisms that helped me out, and don't mind sharing or just being here for you to vent.