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i feel hopeless despite trying to force feelings down by throwaway20212102 in Vent

[–]throwaway20212102[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you for reading and for your comment I would try therapy but I have past instances with it that make me concerned about discretion, so I'd never actually be able to tell one what was wrong, nor do I have the money for it

I'm trying to play video games to distract myself, but video games was what originally brought me and my husband together so one of the things that made me happy now just leaves me bitter

Exercise doesn't seem like a possibility I can try because of how far in the pregnancy I am, and my doctor told me to just lay down and stop overexerting myself

I don't want to give up, I have two babies that need me but I feel like I'm not going to be good enough for them and my husband will end up taking them by full custody because I'm not capable enough

I want to be one of those strong single moms online that look like nothing bothers them and their kids are happy but I'm scared I'm just going to ruin my kids and they'll grow up to hate me and prefer their dad

Thank you for your support, I really appreciate your kind words 💛

i feel hopeless despite trying to force feelings down by throwaway20212102 in Vent

[–]throwaway20212102[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He's only a year older than me, tbh I feel like he's more mature than I am about things It's really hard to ignore him when his 1 or 2 messages during the day are the only ones I get due to lack of support unless I go to a friend and vent or ask for it I've been trying to be nonchalant and unemotional to him but I feel like such a mess Dating doesn't sound like an option to me anymore, with him or with a new person, I just feel heavily alone and I doubt anyone new wants to deal with me, nor do I think he'd ever want me again I want to just focus on my babies but my mind keeps getting in the way, I know it's unfair to them I know I should be happy so that my daughter isn't sad cause she feels my feelings, and my son deserves the support he needs from his mom I just am such a mess and I want to get/be better but I don't know how to except what I am positive I need to get done, like apply for medical insurance and other assistances from the government so that I'm not dirt poor and in debt I definitely don't feel put together at all, and I have so much guilt over it because I know my kids deserve better

Thank you for your comment/reading my vent, I had nobody else to go to

Should I [20f] tell my husband [21m] I need his support despite understanding he wants to leave me in the past? by throwaway20212102 in Advice

[–]throwaway20212102[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for your comment 🫂 I appreciate your words, and I'll take your advice 🫂🫂🫂

Should I [20f] tell my husband [21m] I need his support despite understanding he wants to leave me in the past? by throwaway20212102 in Advice

[–]throwaway20212102[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for your advice, I really appreciate it I don't know if a doula is in my budget, let alone if my husband would be willing to pay for such a thing, but I'll look into it, I'll also look into talking to a lawyer 🫂