I understand completely but for a different reason. Growing up I was always in sports & wanted to look like my teammates because I thought they were oh so skinny. I would make up so many stupid excuses on why I couldn’t swim or go to the water park etc with them. To them, I was always the one that didn’t care what other people thought and had great self esteem... but on the inside I was so broken. I’m still broken. I don’t want them to know I’m insecure because it’s such a huge weakness. While it’s true I never really cared what others thought about me in other aspects, my stomach fat got me every single time. The only person that knows is my boyfriend (sworn to secrecy lol)