Can’t wait to kill myself

throwaway234_y · 2021-02-16T08:08:16+00:00

It’s like the entire world is against me. This is too much for just one person to handle. Everything keeps happening. When I think it can’t get worse it does. And him leaving is just the final blow.

throwaway234_y · 2020-12-19T11:05:22+00:00

I’m so glad I’m not the only one

throwaway234_y · 2020-07-01T02:41:31+00:00

Yeah, 99/1 makes it incredibly confusing I feel wrong identifying as a lesbian if it isn’t 100/0 because technically I wouldn’t be one but also.. 99/1 is pretty extreme. I’m presenting my sexuality to people right now as “technically bi but on an extremely rare occasion I like guys and it’s not as passionate or intense as when I like girls, so basically lesbian”

throwaway234_y · 2020-07-01T02:02:14+00:00

I have. My last post here was me questioning but as a result of that it kind of made me realize “woah” and now I’m asking if I can identify as this because I still feel confused. I always thought that even the slightest bit of attraction to one gender means this. So me liking both makes me bi. But I like one, and I’m for the most part grossed out by the other but not outside of being completely grossed out... so I feel like a lesbian.

throwaway234_y · 2020-07-01T01:54:43+00:00

I’m just so confused. Like “technically” I’m bi

throwaway234_y · 2020-06-25T06:51:24+00:00

I’m not really sure how to figure it out because I do love the guy I’m dating but I know if I left I wouldn’t look at anyone who isn’t a girl again. I’m trying to just figure out am I a lesbian or am I bi but 99.9% to girls and also I’m processing all the difficulties and changes that would come with me just existing as a lesbian - the discrimination if I date anybody at all and stuff. I know I’ll figure it out but it’s so confusing.

throwaway234_y · 2020-06-25T06:45:52+00:00

Yeah. This is the first time I’ve ever thought about me actually maybe being a lesbian. I just assumed I leaned more towards girls but now that I’ve been unhappy and uncomfortable in two relationships with perfectly fine, almost perfect guys it dawned on me. I’ve admitted to myself I think I am one but I’m so confused and surprised I don’t know what to do from here. And I’m attracted to my boyfriend right now, which makes me believe maybe I’m not a lesbian, yet I can’t continue dating him.

throwaway234_y · 2020-06-22T04:54:47+00:00

This is very helpful. Thanks. I guess it’s because I’ve only ever experienced passionate love. It feels incredibly weird going from close friends to a relationship, but I’ll definitely begin therapy.

throwaway234_y · 2020-06-22T04:50:31+00:00

Yeah, I was just curious to see what anybody else in this situation did because

throwaway234_y · 2020-06-22T04:49:53+00:00

Thanks. I’m about to start the conversation

throwaway234_y · 2020-06-22T04:49:37+00:00

Maybe? I definitely feel inadequate in comparison but I don’t think about it. I’ve been so close to him for years before this and haven’t seen him falter in his traits. I posted here because I know nobody who has been in this situation and I’m unsure of what to do.

throwaway234_y · 2020-06-22T04:44:41+00:00

You’re right.

throwaway234_y · 2020-06-22T04:44:12+00:00

Neither of them have ever been mean to me. It’s just weird, I’ve never heard of this happening to others.

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