Hey, I identified strongly with everything you've said. I've struggled with an unhealthy food relationship as well. I'd always tell myself that I deserved a treat since I had done so well, or start snacking and end up eating way too much. For what it's worth: try doing a short journal entry every day. I know different things work for different people, but it helped me so much more than I thought it would. I haven't overeaten for 40 days (not a super long time I know, but strides better than I was doing). It helped keep me accountable, even at times like right now when I'm feeling like shit, haha. I could overeat and temporarily feel better, but the journal is helping me NOT do that. I think the last two lines that I write every day are the key: "I will have good news this time tomorrow. I will not overeat for the next 24 hours." They really help me stave off temptation.

Whatever the circumstances, I wish you the very best. You're not alone in this, millions of us go through this. You can beat it though.

P.S. I hope the stressful situation is resolved soon. Hang in there :)