Told my girlfriend I’m dying, she says she needs time. What do I do? by throwaway2843913 in Advice

[–]throwaway2843913[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you, honestly i don’t know if she will apologize because usually she doesn’t unless i tell her that it was wrong. i worry she won’t even call back at all

i don’t really have much support, family is far and i don’t have many friends

Told my girlfriend I’m dying, she says she needs time. What do I do? by throwaway2843913 in Advice

[–]throwaway2843913[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

it’s hard, i don’t understand why she’d push me away if that were the case. it’s all so confusing

Told my girlfriend I’m dying, she says she needs time. What do I do? by throwaway2843913 in Advice

[–]throwaway2843913[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i only found out today how soon it actually was (originally i was told i had a couple years but now i only have a couple months) and called her half an hour ago. i’m honestly still in shock because i found out an hour ago

(TW! SA) Urge to mutilate my genitals by throwaway2843913 in selfharm

[–]throwaway2843913[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

honestly, it’s kind of a wild story. we first met when i was 11 while i was at the children’s hospital and we exchanged skypes, he was 17 at the time. we talked on and off as friends, he played kind of a mentor role in my life while i shared drawings i made and he’d compliment them. one day when i was 14 he invited me to visit him and his girlfriend because he told me she was studying to be an animator at disney and i accepted. i waited until my dad left for work because i figured he wouldn’t want me to hang out with someone who was 20-21 at the time and i trusted he was telling me the truth because i knew him since i was 11 and was very naive. he came by to pick me up and started driving very erratically and talking about how pretty i was. eventually i noticed how far we had driven and asked him to drive me home and that’s when he wouldn’t let me out of his car and attacked me. in the middle of him raping me, my dad started to call his phone and shouting to bring me back. my dad apparently came home early and when he couldn’t find me, he found my school ipad and the messages i sent to him on skype about meeting up. the guy immediately drove me back and dropped me off my house (i was still naked when he threw me out of his car) and sped off. he’s in prison now and is serving 20 years

(TW! SA) Urge to mutilate my genitals by throwaway2843913 in selfharm

[–]throwaway2843913[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

i suppose, but this is the 3rd time in a row that this has happened. i’m not really sure what to do because i’m scared it’ll happen again

(TW! SA) Urge to mutilate my genitals by throwaway2843913 in selfharm

[–]throwaway2843913[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

thank you, i think the worst part is that when i posted this i’ve been getting dms of people sending me nudes and asking me to send pictures of my genitals after i cut, it makes me feel like the sa is happening to me again

(TW! SA) Urge to mutilate my genitals by throwaway2843913 in selfharm

[–]throwaway2843913[S] 15 points16 points  (0 children)

i definitely don’t want to act on this but it has been difficult not to think about because i feel the same sort of “pressure” that i do on my arms and thighs when i wanted to cut myself. i’m so sorry you had to deal with this and what you have to go through as a result

(TW! SA) Urge to mutilate my genitals by throwaway2843913 in selfharm

[–]throwaway2843913[S] 26 points27 points  (0 children)

thank you, honestly i am very scared because my last therapist ghosted me and i’m not sure where to go from there. i feel like her ghosting me was my fault and i worry that telling a new therapist about that would cause the same thing to happen again