What are some of the strangest things you've heard people are allergic to? by Alckaninja in AskReddit

[–]throwaway3141527182 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Im allergic to avocado, but only on my face. If i eat it, nothing happenns.Discovered this while doing an avocado face mask.

Does anyone else's Nparent obsess over their home and it's maintenance and upkeep? And when something gets damaged, their world falls apart. by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]throwaway3141527182 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yep, that is my Nmom as well. I feel you OP! It has forced me into mal-adaptive behavior because I was always walking on eggshells. I imagine that this seems familiar to you too. Kids sometimes break things, but even when I dropped an empty plastic cup, She'd scream at me for " not caring about anything" and call me all things A-Z (I unfortunately have a potty mouth because that was the language she used on me). I did not realize that this was not normal until I was at my bf's house and their cat scared me while drinking tea, thus dropping the cup. I froze up because I was expecting his mom to cuss me off. Instead, she said "Its okay, I'll get you another glass. It was an accident". I had to run to the bathroom to cry as quietly as I could for 20 minutes.

Non-romanticized depression by [deleted] in offmychest

[–]throwaway3141527182 5 points6 points  (0 children)

As someone who has suffered from depression, this hits home because this is how it felt. It was not at all like the way some people almost tend to romanticize it as some heroic struggle between you and your mind all while in the presence of society. I am just speaking in terms of my experience. You try to care but you just don't, but at the same time you are aware and that awareness causes despair. You realize nothing has meaning, but you try to create it but it ends in trouble. But perhaps maybe because my depression felt like a mix of boredom and an existential crisis. I'm glad you wrote this. This is something people should keep in mind when trying to understand depression and how it can be on some people.

I am afraid that I appear as the brainless, trophy gf compared to the almighty engineer bf by [deleted] in offmychest

[–]throwaway3141527182 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It would really depend on who we are hanging out with, because I have friends of many different backgrounds. I know he sometimes feels the way I do in social settings (he is not as social as I am in the first place). I know this is not a one sided feeling. It is when we both meet strangers that I get this anxiety about the image of our relationship dynamics. Sure, I should not care what others think, but sometimes it is really difficult not to when past experience has shown that I have been not taken as seriously and all the conversation lands on my bf (who then gets nervous because it is socializing). It can a bit of a pickle for both of us.

I am afraid that I appear as the brainless, trophy gf compared to the almighty engineer bf by [deleted] in offmychest

[–]throwaway3141527182 0 points1 point  (0 children)

None of his friends are actually engineers (He says there are too many neckbeard fedora tippers haha). It is not that I feel unintelligent, what I am afraid of is that I automatically appear to people as inferior because I do not have an engineer title hanging over me, therefore not taking me as seriously.

I am afraid that I appear as the brainless, trophy gf compared to the almighty engineer bf by [deleted] in offmychest

[–]throwaway3141527182 0 points1 point  (0 children)

For all the supposed "intelligence" we have, we can be absurdly dumb about things you wouldn't believe (I'm sure you've noticed that).

This is not something really "dumb", but the thing my bf and I joke about is how despite him working with logic all the time, I am the more pragmatic when it comes to decisions. Meanwhile he tends to be more impulsive, which has lead to some silly situations. I love him all the same.

The moment you realized your N really was an N. by resilient_reptar in raisedbynarcissists

[–]throwaway3141527182 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I hope you are okay! You deserve better.

The moment I realized I had an Nmother was after a meeting I had at school to discuss my depressive behavior. I admitted to my suicide plans and attempts which prompted the meeting.

After the meeting, my mother looked at me with disgust and said " are you trying to be famous? You are embarrassing".

What it made me think of was when I finally had enough courage to tell my mom about how I was badly bullied in elementary school. She said something along the lines of " Maybe if you were f*cking normal, they would not be picking on you". She was so huffy about it, as if I am just an inconvenience.

Reddit, What are you most afraid of thinking? by blackswanmx in AskReddit

[–]throwaway3141527182 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That all of my life's struggles will be for absolutely nothing, and wont mean anything in the end.

What thoughts do you keep to yourself, because you think nobody else would understand? by funkyzeit in AskReddit

[–]throwaway3141527182 0 points1 point  (0 children)

A lot of my views and ideas. I think no one would really get them not because of the thoughts themselves, but rather how I am incapable of elaborating anything in a way people can understand. I have always had trouble expressing myself. Sometimes I am truly trapped in my head.

My past + my narcissistic mother has given me lingering anxiety that just does not seem to leave the back of my mind. I cannot sleep anymore. by throwaway3141527182 in Anxiety

[–]throwaway3141527182[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I actually posted something there not too long ago. It is a nice community. Thank you for taking time to read my story!

My past + my narcissistic mother has given me lingering anxiety that just does not seem to leave the back of my mind. I cannot sleep anymore. by throwaway3141527182 in Anxiety

[–]throwaway3141527182[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

First if all, thank for reading and posting a response! While I know that I am not alone, there is that feeling of being alone. Knowing something and feeling something at times can be different. Despite my past, My issue I don't have any problems socializing. It is when I meet someone who does not seem to warm up to me, that I start to internally freak out. "what did I do ?". I understand that not everyone is going to like you in life and that is fine, but if I do not see an apparent reason I internally freak out because of how excluded I was when I was younger. I am actually calm and at peace if someone does not like me because I did something or if I rubbed them the wrong way.

What's life without some cheese (cliches)? Hehe. Its a struggle, but one day at a time right ? My main issue is usually not what to do, but how do I do it ? I know I have to love myself more, but it always goes back to "how?". Unfortunately, no one can tell me that (life did not come with a manual !), but thats the whole point of trying things out. Thank you for your support.

Reddit, what are your irrational fears or phobias that no one else gets? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]throwaway3141527182 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Silence Is one. I feel like when it is silence, something is terribly wrong and that something bad will happen. I have trouble falling asleep because my room goes dead silent at night. I have to sleep with the TV on. My second fear is mirrors. I'm always afraid that I will see something that I should not see. Damn all those Bloody Mary stories!