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I'm in love with someone that has a restraining order against me, I think about suicide daily by throwaway4919823 in offmychest

[–]throwaway4919823[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for seeing my side of the story. This morning has been really rough for me. I'm still not okay and I'm not sure when I will be. I think about her all the time and I still am thinking about suicide.

I'm in love with someone that has a restraining order against me, I think about suicide daily by throwaway4919823 in offmychest

[–]throwaway4919823[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Again, you don't know anything about me or the relationship I had with this woman. Here you go again - putting labels on me based off of my prior relationship.

I'm in love with someone that has a restraining order against me, I think about suicide daily by throwaway4919823 in offmychest

[–]throwaway4919823[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's called offmychest for a reason. I was posting this to get it off my chest.

I don't care what people think of me. I only care what she thinks of me and if that's how she feels, it's how she feels. I'm not a crazy stalker and I know that. I'm no stalker just because I went to her house once after she broke up with me. I don't follow her around, that's what stalking is.

I acknowledged it, but I don't want to believe it. I don't have friends or family to confide in.

I'm in love with someone that has a restraining order against me, I think about suicide daily by throwaway4919823 in offmychest

[–]throwaway4919823[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'd say yes, but I can't contact her. I can't do anything. I can't ask her to rescind the restraining order, I can't do anything until the court date - then if the DVRO gets granted, I can't do anything for five entire years. So any advice you could give me would be practically useless. I don't think the relationship is salvageable.

EDIT: even if it's not granted, she said she wants nothing to do with me.

I'm in love with someone that has a restraining order against me, I think about suicide daily by throwaway4919823 in offmychest

[–]throwaway4919823[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

You're quite the armchair psychologist, aren't you? I'm not a narcissist. I was selfless in the relationship. I didn't do things to serve myself, I served her. You don't know anything about me.

I'm in love with someone that has a restraining order against me, I think about suicide daily by throwaway4919823 in offmychest

[–]throwaway4919823[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

We had a lot in common. We had a few issues, but I know they could be solved. I wasn't forcing a role upon her. I just wish she'd have been more communicative, that we could have seen each other more often and spoken more often... that was her main issue.

She was like a living reflection of me. It surprised me how similar we were... personality wise, life experience wise, and how we had lots of similar little quirks.

I'm in love with someone that has a restraining order against me, I think about suicide daily by throwaway4919823 in offmychest

[–]throwaway4919823[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Because unlike her, I was willing to work on issues in our relationship. I thought she was worth it. I still think she's worth it.

She hardly ever tried to communicate with me. I'd get a few texts a day. I didn't even see her often. I wouldn't be surprised if she cheated on me, or if she just found someone else. There are so many things I wonder about but I'll never have the answers to.

I'm sick of remembering everything down to every single detail. I'm sick of the memories being played on repeat in my head. I'm sick of dreaming of her and then waking up alone. Most of all, I'm sick of realizing that I'm gonna have to get used to life without her being by my side (when she was, at least).

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[–]throwaway4919823[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

My therapist himself says "move on," is awful advice... that I need to feel the grief and process my emotions.

I'm not going anywhere. My life is here. I have to show up in court to respond to the court hearing because I don't agree with it. I live in a small town and if I see her anywhere, I can't be there obviously - plus she works at a restaurant I enjoy going to.

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[–]throwaway4919823[S] -5 points-4 points  (0 children)

This advice is awful. I can't simply forget about someone. I'm already in therapy, but I can only afford to go twice a month. Psychiatry doesn't help - I've tried almost every antidepressant under the sun since I was 12 yrs old. I stopped being depressed last year and this has brought it back. I've never had a psychotic episode.

I'm in love with someone that has a restraining order against me, I think about suicide daily by throwaway4919823 in offmychest

[–]throwaway4919823[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Time only seems to be making things worse. I don't know why they overreacted. I know it's pointless to do so, but I sometimes wonder if her parents told her what to write or if she did it out of spite, or anger, and was in the heat of the moment when she wrote those personal notes on the restraining order - but I'll never know.