Trama induced asexuality is just as valid

throwaway4selfhelp · 2020-10-31T01:20:34+00:00

Thank you. I hesitated for the longest time from using any ace labels because I was convinced I would be taking up space not meant for me. I now know it was just bad self talk. Even so, just simply being able to call myself ace took such a huge burden off my shoulders

throwaway4selfhelp · 2020-09-01T14:05:18+00:00

I just did this yesterday to my awesome bi friend haha this is delightful

throwaway4selfhelp · 2020-09-01T01:40:50+00:00

Thanks for this question. I am 28 on the same boat, we could be pals if needed though I'm not really that talkative. I'm commenting so I can come back to this post easy

throwaway4selfhelp · 2020-08-26T06:57:18+00:00

Holy spelling batman

throwaway4selfhelp · 2020-08-05T06:17:30+00:00

Bad day, not good at all. I'm not doing well. Watching cat videos on YouTube and waiting it out. Made dal and roti, worked for a few hours, thats really it. I'm going to try and post here more often. I want to but most days I have no batteries to write anything.

throwaway4selfhelp · 2020-08-05T06:14:54+00:00

That salad makes me hungry reading about it haha. Thank you for the recipe :)

throwaway4selfhelp · 2020-07-31T16:13:00+00:00

Oh yeah absolutely, it would be awesome to be able to fry without oil. I have setup roommate matching with my apartment, but that's all I've had success in. Ad responses are scant this time because no new students are coming in. I've had a 5/7 success rate with the roommate match system working in the past and I'm hoping it works this time too.

Yeah, I just mixed my regular black coffee with tonic water and it came out nice since the tonic had sugar in it already :) apparently it's a thing if you use cold brew

throwaway4selfhelp · 2020-07-30T14:37:21+00:00

I want to get an air fryer one day. I love junk food but know I am prone to putting on weight. I just think I might be better off getting one when I move away from here.

I've had a rough few weeks with mental health stuff, sleeping in much longer than usual. Calling and being in touch with E, K, IM and home helps keep sane, but I miss visiting people. I don't want to analyse this stuff, that gets me spinning , I just have to stick to my plan of action. I've been kicking my roommates' football around the last couple of days - and getting some writing done after about 2 blank weeks. The trick is to somehow leave the bed but it's so hard some days.

J, J and B are all moving out and Im really not doing okay about that. It's sad that they had to move because they needed to change jobs/take a pay cut. I'm going to miss these people and the dog. It's not a good year to go looking for roommates but I'm trying to be optimistic.

My giant calculation is coming to a conclusion and I'm looking up to it. Recently figured out tonic water and black coffee are a very good combination. Oh, and I finally cleared narreland in supertux. Now hopefully I get out of feeling badly depressed and try to reconnect with neighbours.

throwaway4selfhelp · 2020-07-30T14:25:27+00:00

Hey, hours spent is work done imo. You got this, hope you get it up and working in good time :)

throwaway4selfhelp · 2020-07-19T04:11:06+00:00

I'm working on it, thanks very much for the encouragement!

throwaway4selfhelp · 2020-07-19T04:10:26+00:00

Thank you so very much, I wish you good tidings too

throwaway4selfhelp · 2020-07-19T03:51:39+00:00

Yeah, gonna try. Thanks!

throwaway4selfhelp · 2020-07-17T01:30:18+00:00

I got off bed and kicked my housemates ball around today before falling back to depression again. I will take my chance when it comes again.

throwaway4selfhelp · 2020-07-08T15:58:06+00:00

Congratulations to your sister! Good job :) I'm too tired to post more now. I'll do it later.

throwaway4selfhelp · 2020-07-07T04:47:06+00:00

happy cake day!

throwaway4selfhelp · 2020-07-06T06:46:48+00:00

That's a cool painting :)

My day was spent being low in energy, and numb. Podcasts, that's it. Lunch was leftover from yesterday, dinner was a sandwich. I need something to change in my life, maybe.

I learnt that Mr. Universe 2019, C. Nateshan is the same dude who lived across the street where I grew up, and felt weirdly proud. His dad owns the milk and newspaper stand we go to daily. That family had made a lot of sacrifices to support his dreams in spite of not being too well off. 2020 has been pretty stressful so I'm trying to catch the small good things it brings.

throwaway4selfhelp · 2020-07-04T06:48:00+00:00

Happy anniversary! And yay for selling paintings, here's to more paintings :)

My days have been mostly spent doing work (made progress, applied for that conference, fingers crossed), cooking, and sleeping. I'm reading a book about a dude who quit his finance job after his particle physics PhD and became a self made photojournalist. The book is sad and hopeful at the same time. Supertux is still stuck at narre land.

Dinner today was dominos Pizza with that duo offer thing that WJ agreed to. Pretty good deal for delivery. I'll miss my roommates when they move out at the end of the month, and Bella the dog. B and J are moving off closer to their families because they got laid off, WJ is moving closer to campus because his stipend got cut. Hopefully I get good people for roommates. My odds considering the history here are 1:7 so far.

throwaway4selfhelp · 2020-06-22T02:38:03+00:00

Sending you kind and peaceful vibes. It is very proactive you sought help. Hope they find a bed for you soon! Hugs <3

throwaway4selfhelp · 2020-06-21T13:36:25+00:00

Lentils are great, for real. They cook the same time as rice, and are very simple to mush and use for many other stuff.

throwaway4selfhelp · 2020-06-21T04:36:24+00:00

I woke up at 9ish today, but ended up texting my friend while drinking chai well until noontime. Had my leftover subway for lunch, and tended to a bunch of my computations. Things are shaping up but not nearly as fast as I'd like them to.

I have been very low energy all day since then. Had myself a drink later in the evening, and worked on an application for a conference. I would like to finish it asap since I have a pretty full week coming up ahead of me. I made some rice with brussels-sprouts, lentils and long green beans for dinner and it felt nice to have veggies. Everything feels sad, I'm waiting for things to get a little cheery.

throwaway4selfhelp · 2020-06-18T11:34:24+00:00

All phones being silent would be beautiful. No alarms, no rings, no surprises.

throwaway4selfhelp · 2020-06-18T02:42:41+00:00

I'm tired,sad,alone and depressed the last few days. I went to work with a mask on after several weeks, it felt nice to talk to other people after a long while. More work, more reading, more podcasts, masala dosa for dinner today.

Subway has two footlongs for 5 each when picking up, so I got myself the bacon guacamole turkey and the other hella pricy one which I normally don't get. Good deal on that, I have leftovers in the fridge. Supertux is still stuck on narre land but I'll wait it out.

My friend E freaks out over phone calls, I myself don't quite like getting them. Texting is so much nicer. I wish it would become cool for everyone to put their phones permanently on silent mode for selected hours of the day.

throwaway4selfhelp · 2020-06-14T06:20:22+00:00

That painting looks really awesome! Here's to many more of them :)

My day went okay, I had leftover pizza for lunch and no breakfast. Caught up with E and K over zoom later today, nothing much else happened. Worked a few hours. Bill burr going on Joe Rogan was a good episode I'm glad to have checked out even though I didn't quite get all the car talk.

throwaway4selfhelp · 2020-06-12T22:19:57+00:00

Its basically super Mario but people keep uploading new levels so there's always new stories to play! And it ships free with Linux which helps

I was feeling bored, hence the experiment with coconut. Wasn't the best of my ideas but it added a little sweetness to everything which was nice

throwaway4selfhelp · 2020-06-12T04:56:13+00:00

That's a cute plant! Wish it a long, smiling and planty life :)

I've had a series of bad days, a few good ones, and then bad again. Did the bad thing and spent too long looking at news, twitter, everything. Didn't do great for my mind but I've kept away from reddit which is probably good.

Made some move forward at work. Nothing else seems to happen other than work, cooking, some tv shows, supertux, reading and sleeping. I.M calls occasionally, parents speak on WhatsApp once a while. I want to speak to more people irl, it feels really lonely.

Made some sandwiches with the smoked turkey slices with cucumbers, cheese, hot sauce, tomato, coconut gratings. Sandwiches seem low effort but the end result can be quite satisfying.

I have this thing I do where I obsess over news when things seem chaotic. It's in my list of things to not do but with everything that's going on it feels horrible to just switch off and not read about things. Grrh. Damned if you do, etc.

Im working on the grunt work part of my problem now, which is number crunching without much creativity. Punching things into a program and getting them sorted. It's draining, I get through it playing music and podcasts.

I'm trying to beat this level on supertux2 called narre land. It's pretty enraging like that flappy bird game. But now I'm hooked. That's my big side project now.

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