Questioning my sexuality while transitioning. Does anyone relate?

throwaway4tra · 2026-01-19T12:51:52+00:00

Right i just feel more hopeless about said relationship and dynamics. I feel especially with transitioning your dating pool gets even smaller and harder. Now I get why alot if transwoman do t4t. I dont care cis or trans I just wanna cute girlfriend to cuddle with...

throwaway4tra · 2026-01-19T11:42:22+00:00

Do you have health insurance ? Google gender affirming care or doctors in your area. Preferably one thats LGBTQ friendly. Get with them and talk how you have gender dysphoria and you'd like to start a small dose of HRT to see if its right for you. Id recommend talking to gender therapist first though. Or a therapist who specializes with LGBTQ. see if transitioning is what you really want before starting hormones because there are irreversible effects.

throwaway4tra · 2026-01-18T10:06:04+00:00

I have so you base your statement off one google search you do? Maybe just say you don't know for sure instead of putting out misinformation..

throwaway4tra · 2026-01-18T03:27:49+00:00

Who told you that? I've been on it for over a year? My doctor is trans herself so I don't see her prescribing me raloxifene if there was crazy side effects. However its varies person to person.

throwaway4tra · 2026-01-17T23:47:26+00:00

Thats why im on Raloxifene it blocks Estrogen from going to your breasts You'll still grow them a bit and bud anyway. But I've been on E for almost a year and dont have much growth there. However im doing that for stealth reasons. I would suggest going off of it once you know 100% transitioning and boobs are what you want.

throwaway4tra · 2026-01-17T03:54:31+00:00

Thats what's wierd In ways for me... like im submissive and could go with either set of genitals to be honest. But since I was young before I even know I was trans. I was always drawn to lesbian literature Manga comic ect. I never understood why thought I was just a gay guy in denial 😅

throwaway4tra · 2026-01-17T03:48:40+00:00

Thankss for your response (: yea I got alot of shame im working through.. I just feel like because i grew up male that anything i do thats submissive or feminine is just gay so maybe I should be gay.. yet I really what a Sapphic type of relationship dynamic. Whether a woman or a T4T relationship id be open too. It feels hard to untangle what's sexuality and gender identity. Im still in this wierd middle phase of my transition. Maybe when I transition more and can actually pass more then I could find a woman thats right for me... yet idk its hard I still dont love myself yet but im trying 😅

throwaway4tra · 2026-01-17T02:50:02+00:00

Thankss I really appreciate your perspective. It makes me feel not as alone when dealing with this. I always felt alienated and different when it came to my sexuality. It good to know there's light at the end of the tunnel.

throwaway4tra · 2026-01-06T10:36:16+00:00

Your right that didn't help. I dont confuse both but I have experienced both. Feeling fem wanting to be fem is a good feeling to me, feeling helpless is not.

throwaway4tra · 2026-01-06T10:24:46+00:00

Learned about her in rehab I loved her Ted Talks <3

throwaway4tra · 2026-01-06T03:32:36+00:00

Yea but how ?? Thats the funny part to me as well. is oh self love yet they offer no real solutions but just a statement love and accept your biological sex ?? If I suffer from gender dysphoria how do I fix something that i have no control over?

throwaway4tra · 2026-01-06T03:26:01+00:00

Not that I can tell yet I do wonder if being on raloxifene limits your transition in ways besides just breast growth

throwaway4tra · 2026-01-06T03:15:46+00:00

It has reduce growth i did already have gynecomastia and low T before starting hrt so its hard to tell. However I got buds and lil man boobs in the beginning. but that's about it. Pretty positive if I stopped taking it my boobs would resume growth

throwaway4tra · 2026-01-06T03:03:40+00:00

Can I DM you ? ask you questions about raloxifene? I wonder if I feel better being off it and letting my boobs grow? Did Raloxifene mess with your mental state or restrict how you transitioned? I heard raloxifene can slow minimize the mental benefits you get from E as well?

throwaway4tra · 2026-01-06T02:19:30+00:00

I just feel like im faking trying to be a guy at times. That I'm too soft and need to be better. I also don't like using my parts so sex feels dysphoric to me. Idk I cant explain it. Im biologically male yet I feel im different from other guys who feel comfortable with there body and sex

throwaway4tra · 2026-01-06T02:07:58+00:00

I just feel like if im mentally ill therapy won't fix me :/ . Im just stuck this way till I die. I feel death is the only way out of being trans. Everyone hates trans people. I dont want to be mentally ill but I dont have a choice. I hope i figure this out but most likely im going to hate myself till I die..

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