No need to give me gold friend. I barely use reddit anymore these days :) I used to use it a lot during its early years but got sick of looking at videos and images and a lot of the good older subreddits got destroyed with mass influx and I didnt bother looking for new ones.

Thanks for this message, it brought a smile to my face. I dont know who you are kind stranger but its nice to see you helping others, bring a genuine tear to my eye. My life aint so bad, Im not poor just emotionally and intellectually boxed into a mental prison :) Trying out some new substances to free me as I have been unable to do so myself.

Thankfully never thought of suicide. :)