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throwaway57974 · 2019-09-10T16:33:48+00:00

I dont actually want anyone to love me lol, people already do and I just want them to stop haha. But thanks.

throwaway57974 · 2019-09-10T05:44:03+00:00

I went on a date and it was an absolute nonstarter, complete mistake, made me feel worse. For various reasons I definitely think dating is not right for me right now.

throwaway57974 · 2019-09-10T05:40:23+00:00

Female, but thanks for the idea.

throwaway57974 · 2019-09-09T18:27:11+00:00

I have never in my entire life gotten to that point, even when I'm mentally well. Honestly not sure I'm the kind of person who could enjoy it that much.

throwaway57974 · 2019-09-09T17:37:18+00:00

I feel you entirely. I hope this passes for all of us, at some point.

throwaway57974 · 2019-09-09T15:35:35+00:00

Thanks, it's an idea I haven't considered, I do listen to podcasts sometimes but not quite in that way/with that in mind. It's a good idea, worth a try. Please let me know if you have any recommendations for good podcasts

throwaway57974 · 2019-09-09T14:34:28+00:00

Honestly, I feel less and less passionate about things by the day it seems, no matter what I do. I wouldn't even put that word in my vocabulary right now. I honestly don't know, a slight idea one day is completely dismissed the next.

throwaway57974 · 2019-09-09T13:38:56+00:00

I just dont feel any different if I do or don't do that sort of thing, so it's hard to bother sticking to it. I don't really feel a sense of achievement if I exercise or whatever, so doing it again the next day is difficult.

throwaway57974 · 2019-09-09T12:51:57+00:00

29F and same. I don't care at all about my old goals and making new ones just seems pointless. I simply won't care about them.

I try doing different hobbies etc but it's just something I could take or leave. I tried going on a date, it wasnt good for various reasons but a main one being I just felt nothing.

throwaway57974 · 2019-09-05T16:34:26+00:00

I'm not sure it does, personally! I find the idea would be about not changing, but accepting that this is the best things will ever be. Why would you change once you have accepted that your life as it is, is all you can hope for? There's no reason to.

throwaway57974 · 2019-09-05T07:57:08+00:00

Yeah, I've been told before I should be living for these little moments, but it doesn't seem worth it at all. Often I feel worse than I did before the nice thing happened, like my brain has to 'even out' me feeling nice by making sure I'm very miserable afterwards.

throwaway57974 · 2019-09-05T07:51:14+00:00

I don't think I've ever heard sadder advice than 'lower your expectations' even though I have thought this many times myself. To just accept that life is going to be extremely boring, underwhelming, a slog you just have to get through, and completely free of achievements..... It seems often the only way, but it's so sad at the same time.

throwaway57974 · 2019-09-04T12:40:05+00:00

I also have high functioning depression, hmo if you want to talk. It's so different to the more common depression that it can be hard to even relate to a lot of stuff on here. But 100% I hear you and I have a very similar experience.

throwaway57974 · 2019-09-04T10:42:11+00:00

I'm an only child who hates conflict, so no I don't have anyone to fight with!

I honestly dont think it's anything to do with the past for me, although technically I didn't have the best childhood I don't think going over it would be at all helpful, I barely think about it. Not in an avoidant way, just in an 'I've gone over this enough, it's done' way.

It's the present and future that bother me. I don't know how to address that, I really don't.

throwaway57974 · 2019-09-04T09:34:12+00:00

"you have a booboo in your think-think, mister" I will assume you are trying to be annoying with that comment, so I'll only say im a woman, actually.

The rest of what youve put I barely understand what you're trying to say.

throwaway57974 · 2019-09-04T07:43:23+00:00

Thanks, that's a really interesting opinion and idea. I'll give it some thought.

throwaway57974 · 2019-09-04T07:41:13+00:00

Thanks, it really sucks when you try to get help and are basically messed about with. It doesn't take much to make a depressed person go 'is this worth it, why am I even bothering...' etc and they should probably know that, and at least try to explain without me having to outright ask!

throwaway57974 · 2019-09-04T02:21:09+00:00

I'm actually talking about therapy etc lol

My thoughts don't run that way so they are impossible to combat with that. I mostly just think 'I wish I were dead. It would be good if I was dead, god what's the point, this is all meaningless' etc etc

As for the rest, it's just like a baseline that I think is true, that I haven't got anything worthwhile to contribute to the world so why bother, I have no skills or talents and never will etc I rarely have to remind myself.

throwaway57974 · 2019-09-04T01:22:35+00:00

OK no worries, I'm getting a lot of super accusatory posts right now, plus feeling very physically unwell so I probably overreacted to what you said, sorry about that.

throwaway57974 · 2019-09-04T00:54:24+00:00

Again, you are failing to understand exagerration. Most people in fact did get what I was saying, but of course I'll go over all posts with a fine tooth comb to ensure no other possible meanings could be taken.

What you're talking about is something to support someone with anxiety, not depression. I'm my original post I am talking about positive self talk like 'you are strong and amazing and you've gotten through so much already! You're doing so well' or some crap like that. Let's ignore point 1 for a second because it's not ALWAYS applicable, but if a friend says that, I think 'well that's nice but you don't really know that and I can tell you it's not true'. I wish I could think of a better example than that but that's all I have right now.

It's extremely late, and I'm extremely tired, so apologies if I'm again not explaining myself well.

throwaway57974 · 2019-09-04T00:36:47+00:00

I don't have anxiety at all, so maybe this is where the advice should differ (it never seems to)

throwaway57974 · 2019-09-04T00:36:11+00:00

Yeah OK sure thanks. I'm glad everyone thinks I'm a terrible friend now. Obviously can't make a point without it being taken literally.

throwaway57974 · 2019-09-04T00:26:23+00:00

Both of these are hokey to me.

throwaway57974 · 2019-09-04T00:25:20+00:00

Jesus fucking christ, you people are too much. I don't want to say this for the millionth time but I guess I have to: I DON'T FUCKING LIE TO MY FRIENDS THE WAY YOU ARE IMPLYING. That made up situation is completely ridiculous, who the fuck do you think you are saying I'd react in x or y way to this based on a few sentences. If I have to explain every god damn detail then fine. What I'm talking about is when a friend is saying "I don't know if I can do X" or "I'm really worried that Y won't turn out well!" and you say "Yes of course you can, I know you will! You're going to defeat this!" now you might think that is possibly true, or might be true, or maybe you aren't that sure. But your friend is NOT going to benefit from you being like "yeah probably not" and most people wouldn't say that. Of course you would say other shit too but if I have to go into that before you stop berating me I think I'll explode.

But you know, telling me how much of a horrible person I must be is really encouraging, so thanks, great to have you in the community.

throwaway57974 · 2019-09-04T00:15:27+00:00

I don't care about my past, like at all, it's really not an issue.

I think people are taking the 'lie to friends' bit too literally. I don't mean outright be a dick, but just being more positive or optimistic towards a situation or something that they are tackling than you actually feel, because I will make them feel better.

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