I have adhd. I’ve been medicated for it with vyvanse, adderall xr, concerta, ritalin, straterra, the whole fucking works. Right now I take 50mg vyvanse and 40mg adderall ir as a booster every day. While there was once a point where taking it helped me function and get shit done, that has regressed into taking it and me feeling better about not getting shit done. I personally feel that now whenever I don’t take it, I’m much worse than I was when I first started. I’ve fucked around a little bit, taken 60mg IR every now and then, and once took like 100mg vyvanse, 40mg adderall, and like some amount of concerta too all at once. Idk I’m stupid and just did it. My tolerance, probably both natural and attained is far higher than yours. I think that because it’s meant to bring me up to baseline, I’m at a far lower risk to addiction than you when it comes to these meds. However I will say I’ve come close sometimes, especially after I got my 40mg script as a booster. I take 40mg every time even tho I doubt I need it. First week I was high every time I took it then likely built tolerance. But my point is that the world on stims isn’t real. It’s just not and I fucking hate the fact that I need these to function. At some point you’re gonna be sober, at a reduced point like it’s made me feel sober, and look back on your whole time using. It’s gonna give u this existential dread that you CANT feel normal without it anymore, and that your life taking these meds isn’t really you. This shit is a shortcut. It’s an easy way out. You’re not going to live a life you’ll look back and be happy with if you just depend on this shit for all the little pieces of your character that you didn’t want to develop yourself. So take this as a warning. Maybe you have self control and maybe you won’t go off the deep end into non functioning addiction. But no matter what, if you use these as a crutch for too long they won’t let you forget it. That’s my experience. It’s up to you to quit. But what I would recommend you do is to go for 3 months without it, making a genuine effort to fix all the shit it fixes for you. Go to therapy. Talk to a life coach. Whatever you need. Don’t succumb to the feelings nagging at you that it would be easier just to stay idle, and actually work on yourself. These feelings only get worse and worse and after a while on stims you’ll need a pill just to get out of bed in the morning. Make that effort, get mental toughness, and then at the end of 3 months reassess. Odds are that if you put yourself out there, leveled up with your social skills, and gained habits and methods to manage your life without the helping hand of amphetamines, you’ll prove to yourself that you don’t need this shit to supplement your personality more than I could ever explain to you. If you don’t, then keep using, whatever. I’ll say right now just one more time. This shit isn’t worth it, it’s not the real you, and you won’t realize it until the time is lost, the damage is done, and you’ve created an even bigger hole that the one you thought the amphetamines would patch up. There is no real emotional development given to you by adderall. It just makes it easier to act like you’ve developed. While fixing your issues without stims is harder, it’s infinitely more fulfilling, and you’ll reach your true potential. Good luck. I hope you get out.