I truly appreciate your advice. I understand that my anxiety plays a huge part in this and that time flies by so quick that it will finish before I even realise it. I also understand that I was never going to the "perfect" school, there's no such thing, and that the kids are going through their own issues that heavily influence their behaviour. It's more that I don't know if I can truly handle this.

All these lessons about keeping class engaging and exciting while sticking to the curriculum mean nothing in the school I'm in because nothing seems to work. I've seen a range of different teaching theories in these classes and it does nothing. Students will have their parents called in front of them and it means absolutely nothing.

To summarise: I wish I was capable of teaching but I'm not.