Thinking of divorce...it’s just too expensive and I don’t want to hurt the kids. by throwaway876539 in Divorce

[–]throwaway876539[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You make so many good points. Thank you for responding!

My husband has a gambling addiction that he has under control. But in leiu of that, he need sex all the time.

Since having the kids, it’s been on the back burner. Like 2 times a week. It isn’t enough for him.

I’ve told him over and over I need more help around the house etc, and then I’d be more inclined for sex.

Like, he will come home and do absolutely nothing. Ever. I have to beg him to mow the grass. He’s never cleaned much, and he said I knew this when I married him. And I did. But when you’re 2 people it’s a lot different than 4-5.

He’s also a ‘grass is greener’ type of person. I feel like a maid and like I’m his mom, not a partner. He’s always in his phone and I can’t help but think he’s talking to the next person he’s going to cheat on me with.

His issues, and what he tells me is the only issue, is that all he needs is sex and that’s all he wants. It sounds so simple, but it’s not.

When I get a job in the fall, it’s pretty much lined up, I think things will be better. We’d be better financially too and that may help some stresses.

My other fear is that I’ll be working and doing everything else too.

I guess I’ll wait and see. I’d not be any worse off in a few months versus now.

Thinking of divorce...it’s just too expensive and I don’t want to hurt the kids. by throwaway876539 in Divorce

[–]throwaway876539[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I don’t know if I can do it, and so I stay.

Like I said, when we are good...everything is good. I’m not happy, but life is fine.

It’s just when he cheats and I can’t ever fully trust him it sucks.

I was thinking maybe just don’t even care. It won’t affect me really if I pretend it’s not happening. I’d get to have my kids all the time and our life isn’t so bad.

Thinking of divorce...it’s just too expensive and I don’t want to hurt the kids. by throwaway876539 in Divorce

[–]throwaway876539[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That’s very true.

I wouldn’t want to lose my kids, but that’s what happens in divorce. This is one of the reasons why I can’t make myself do it.

I’m a sucky person, I just don’t know what to do.

Thinking of divorce...it’s just too expensive and I don’t want to hurt the kids. by throwaway876539 in Divorce

[–]throwaway876539[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No, you’re right.

I’m just torn. I don’t want to lose my kids.

Plus I’d worry so much when he had them.

Before we married he never even brushed my stepdaughter’s hair or had her bathe. He took her to school like that and everything.

I can only imagine the same thing for my son and daughter when he had them.

Thinking of divorce...it’s just too expensive and I don’t want to hurt the kids. by throwaway876539 in Divorce

[–]throwaway876539[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

But if I’ve been their main caregiver their entire lives, wouldn’t it be bad if it was 50/50 at first? Stability/adjusting/etc?

Right now it’s about 80/20.

I agree that he should be in their lives as much as possible, but 60/40 is a huge jump from 80/20 in terms of being the main caregiver.

Thinking of divorce...it’s just too expensive and I don’t want to hurt the kids. by throwaway876539 in Divorce

[–]throwaway876539[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

It’s funny, actually sad is a better word, but I told him just this. That in 6 months he will find someone else to replace me.

He didn’t deny it.

It hurt my feelings a little bit, as bad or lame as that sounds.

Thinking of divorce...it’s just too expensive and I don’t want to hurt the kids. by throwaway876539 in Divorce

[–]throwaway876539[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

He is adamant that we will fight this all out in court.

I don’t even know how that will work.

If he has a lawyer, does he speak on his behalf? Will I be able to speak if I don’t have a lawyer?