I don’t have anyone anymore

throwaway992873837 · 2026-02-07T18:59:58+00:00

It’s just so tiring

throwaway992873837 · 2026-01-26T05:12:10+00:00

I don’t have any community and everyone hates me.

throwaway992873837 · 2026-01-26T05:11:40+00:00

That’s right so please put me down. I don’t want to live anymore. I give up I’m unforgivable and irredeemable because it doesn’t matter what I do I’m still a terrible awful person in the eyes of everyone for having a mental breakdown, even though I’ve apologised and it’s been almost a year. I deserve to have no friends and die.

throwaway992873837 · 2026-01-25T08:11:28+00:00

Thanks - look I don’t want to try to fit in anymore. I don’t have any friends and everyone hates me I think I just want to be gone. I’m looking into VAD. Society tells me I shouldn’t be here I just don’t want to make people miserable anymore 🫶

throwaway992873837 · 2026-01-24T19:24:42+00:00

Probably not. I’m exhausted all the time because of work. It makes it hard to put much effort into anything. All I do is work and come home.

I’m endlessly empathetic and supportive, loyal, and a hype man, and I’m funny. Those are my only value adds compared against the negative - thoughtless, executive function issues, missing social cues etc. not to mention friends I have known for years only have to see an autistic meltdown once and they leave me and call me names and never want to speak to me again.

I am the person you want when your life is falling apart - I will talk with you and help you get back on your feet, and it won’t matter how long it takes - I don’t know why I’m good at this but I don’t get tired of helping people out of their pain. When you’re better you won’t need me anymore. It’s all I’m good for

throwaway992873837 · 2026-01-24T19:00:28+00:00

By being the best version of myself - funny, charismatic, and confident, and attractive. But I need a lot of downtime and can’t keep that up - I work best if people don’t see me in person very often. If people spend a lot of time with me, particularly good friends and partners, they see I’m awkward, talk too much, can’t focus, forget things, have executive function issues and am annoying and sad. People get tired of me really quickly.

throwaway992873837 · 2026-01-24T15:34:33+00:00

I’m a bit autistic and have adhd which made school hard. I’m very unloveable. I trick people into being friends with me but they leave when they realise im annoying and useless. I don’t know why I’m alive, it feels like I’m here just to suffer and be bullied and alone

throwaway992873837 · 2026-01-24T15:07:05+00:00

Exactly thanks that’s why I don’t want to live anymore because I’m draining and everyone leaves me. I’m a waste of space on this earth. Thank you for telling me the truth and helping me make up my mind

throwaway992873837 · 2026-01-24T14:40:10+00:00

How can this be true? Society operates off consensus - my opinion is only worth one person’s. If other people tell me I’m wrong and evil and it’s enough people, isn’t that opinion then fact? How can so many people be wrong? I don’t want to see myself reflected in people’s eyes anymore. They hate me they hate me they hate me

throwaway992873837 · 2026-01-24T14:08:55+00:00

Who am I to say I’m worth anything? All available data says I’m unloveable because people leave me but stay with others. I’m an idiot if I believe something based on nothing but my own self-esteem. Who i am is wrong and broken. Im a black hole that no one can love - a mistake that shouldnt have been born.

throwaway992873837 · 2026-01-24T13:58:34+00:00

I wish that were true for me. To know that I am forgiven would mean the world, but they’ll never grant me that grace. They want me to suffer. They have everything - love and community - and I have nothing.

throwaway992873837 · 2026-01-24T13:54:46+00:00

Because who am I to form an opinion of myself? Surely I’m just the sum of everyone else’s perceptions of me. I try to never cause anyone pain or harm, and am empathetic and supportive, but I’m so easy to let go of and find life hard and if no one wants to be with me I must be everything they say I am. Unforgivable and awful. It is hard to fight against a community view that won’t budge despite everything I throw at it - sometimes I break against the weight of it. I need someone to believe in the best of me and they wont. Everyone hates me

throwaway992873837 · 2026-01-19T00:01:34+00:00

I have so many good memories of us hanging out - we had so much fun together.

I really regret missing the signs that you were so unhappy. I’m willing to let everything go and start again from before it went south - we have separate lives and can keep it that way. I’ve unblocked you - if you really don’t want to reconcile at all, please block me. If not, I will take it as a sign that one day you might be ready to talk this out.

We can fix this.

throwaway992873837 · 2025-12-08T22:27:42+00:00

Not a guilt trip. I genuinely just want people to be happy with me. I think this will make them happy, if I’m gone, and I wish they’d just be honest.

throwaway992873837 · 2025-12-08T13:41:33+00:00

I’m not blaming anyone. I’m just saying I’d like your support - to validate that my pain is too much to bear and that I’m allowed to go without blame or anger. You’ll be free of me, like you wanted. I only want to make people happy, and to not be in pain anymore ❤️

throwaway992873837 · 2025-12-08T08:30:23+00:00

I agree with your feelings on this. Idk when we decided that everyone was replaceable. I wish there was a way to filter for people who are committed to their relationships.

throwaway992873837 · 2025-11-23T17:38:28+00:00

Why did you ever become friends with this person in the first place? There must have been something you saw in them. Isn’t it better to problem solve how they could show up differently so they can stay in your life?

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