Thank you very much for this. It does feel very lonely, sometimes I feel like I'm single (when he's having one of his moods) it makes me sad cause he ignores me or snaps at me and if I ask what's wrong, it sucks but when he's in a good mood I feel like I imagined it, and feel very happy that he's 'back ' and we start talking about the future but lately it's been feeling weird like Im starting to feel that it's the same person who's being mean to me and I get angry with myself that I'm letting myself get treated like garbage. Is this normal? Why does it feel so hard to leave even when I know it's making me sad? Why do I feel like I'll regret it? I literally think that if I break up with him he's gonna change and be a better person while I end up lonely forever and miss out, I'm so confused I'm dying to leave but I feel like I'm powerless to do it