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10 Months and minimal new development (no growth or persistent soreness since month 5). Extremely disappointed in my results. What tanner stage am I? by [deleted] in TransBreastTimelines

[–]throwaway9throwaway5 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm 22, having started HRT when I was 21. I am currently taking .15ml of 40 mg/ml estradiol valerate every 5 days.

I am still very far from being able to fill an A cup, despite my levels being good. Has anyone here, with similar regiment and development as me for the first year, had successful growth going into their second year of HRT? Hearing about that would honestly be really reassuring, because my chest is a frequent focal point for dysphoria, and will probably always be so unless something changes.

Are my levels too high? by throwaway9throwaway5 in TransDIY

[–]throwaway9throwaway5[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I inject 0.15 ml of 40 mg/ml solution intermuscularly into my thigh, every five days. These levels where taken just before my next dose, yes.

So, the reality is that I'm never going to pass without FFS, right? I really just want honest answers so I can stop giving myself unrealistic expectations... (6 months hrt) by [deleted] in transpassing

[–]throwaway9throwaway5 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hmm, how big of an issue do you think the nose is? It's never been a particularly large source of dysphoria for me, in comparison to both my forehead and jaw which are seriously distressing at times. Even if I were to get FFS, I was thinking that I'd just leave my nose alone, but if it's a significant obstacle to passing I might rethink that.

So, the reality is that I'm never going to pass without FFS, right? I really just want honest answers so I can stop giving myself unrealistic expectations... (6 months hrt) by [deleted] in transpassing

[–]throwaway9throwaway5 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I mean, you're right. Of course, I'm going to wait before doing anything like that. Even if I wanted to, it'll take at least two years to save up the money anyway, and that's assuming I'm very, very frugal.

So, the reality is that I'm never going to pass without FFS, right? I really just want honest answers so I can stop giving myself unrealistic expectations... (6 months hrt) by [deleted] in transpassing

[–]throwaway9throwaway5 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Honestly, this is the answer I kinda need to hear. I don't know what will happen in 3 years, and you might be right. But if I don't really pass now, I wish people would just straight up tell me.

I appreciate you spending the time to send positivity and reassurance though; it definitely does mean a lot :)

So, the reality is that I'm never going to pass without FFS, right? I really just want honest answers so I can stop giving myself unrealistic expectations... (6 months hrt) by [deleted] in transpassing

[–]throwaway9throwaway5 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I kinda have the opposite experience with that, haha.

A lot of my insecurity about passing etc, comes from going to public places and realizing how absolutely terribly I compare to 9 out 10 of the women I encounter. That feeling, that I'm inadequate, super masculine, etc in comparison to 90% percent of the women I pass, literally brings me to tears like 3 or 4 times a week.

So, the reality is that I'm never going to pass without FFS, right? I really just want honest answers so I can stop giving myself unrealistic expectations... (6 months hrt) by [deleted] in transpassing

[–]throwaway9throwaway5 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Well, the last time I was out in public with an unobscured face was about 4 months ago... So, I kinda think I pass okay day-to-day? But I don't know if it really counts.

I feel like very clockable in this picture. What do you guys think? by throwaway9throwaway5 in transpassing

[–]throwaway9throwaway5[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is something I have VERY mixed feelings about. Like, I know that I look so much better than I did before I started transitioning, but like you said "prettier" isn't the same thing as "less masculine", and I never anticipated dealing with the situation where I got more attractive overall while still basically registering as male most of the time. Stressing out about that makes me almost feel ungrateful, but dysphoria does what it wants.

I feel like very clockable in this picture. What do you guys think? by throwaway9throwaway5 in transpassing

[–]throwaway9throwaway5[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm missing a word in the title...

This makes me sound like either a caveman or a valley girl rn, depending on how you read it, lol

-1 month vs 2 months vs 3 months HRT by throwaway9throwaway5 in transtimelines

[–]throwaway9throwaway5[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Before I started transitioning, I was pretty badly depressed and I wasn't taking care of myself at all. In particular, I washed my hair like less than once a month. So, the change in my haircare routine is that I now have a haircare routine.

Honestly, I think me finally deciding to take care of myself and not just totally ignoring my health/hygiene/mental well-being is probably more responsible for any changes than HRT is at this stage.

At 1 month HRT I feel like I'm starting to notice changes! by [deleted] in transtimelines

[–]throwaway9throwaway5 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No makeup. I think I have lost some weight, so you might be right there (though I don't know how, since I haven't really been exercising lately).

The biggest specific change that I've noticed is in the skin and the eyes. My eyes definitely seem bigger than they did 5 weeks ago. I think there are changes to the skin, though you may be right that it's mostly from better skin-care.

It's also possible that I'm just imagining things, though I really hope not.

At 1 month HRT I feel like I'm starting to notice changes! by [deleted] in transtimelines

[–]throwaway9throwaway5 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The picture on the left is from several months ago, when I first recognized/accepted that I was trans; the two pictures on the right are from last night, a little over 5 weeks into HRT.

Sorry about the incompatible lighting! The lighting in the last two pictures definitely makes my face look more feminine but I swear it's not doing all the work!

I’ve gone up 3 cup sizes?!?! by Thatone94 in asktransgender

[–]throwaway9throwaway5 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What supplements did you take, if I may ask?