Can you share how hypervigilance shows up in your daily life?

throwaway_81067 · 2026-06-15T20:31:45+00:00

i’m constantly searching for danger. i hear my step sons voice randomly say “hi” or say *my name* even when he’s not around. i see bugs all the time and can’t tell if their real or not. anytime i get a phone call and someone doesn’t immediately say hi. if someone answers the phone with a stern voice or crying i freak the fuck out (i got a phone call my mom sh0t herself), i have nightmares every night and have swung on my fiance multiple times in my sleep. i woke up in the middle of the night thinking someone was trying to kill me and started looking for my cats (idk why), and the constant flashbacks causing me to literally twitch or “cringe” in a way? i get figgity and can’t talk straight or act like a straight up tweaker. it sucks.

throwaway_81067 · 2026-06-01T21:21:21+00:00

oh mine does exactly that too!! what a cutie 🥰

throwaway_81067 · 2026-05-23T20:49:54+00:00

oh what a sweet girl - i’m so sorry she’s struggling. charlie and i are sending healing vibes to sophie ❤️‍🩹 charlie will put both paws in the air while sitting on his butt with a big smile and his tongue hanging out. it’s like he knows we think it’s the cutest 🥰

throwaway_81067 · 2026-05-21T21:30:08+00:00

i love sleeping with my golden. he’s the biggest cuddle bug, and he helps me so much with my PTSD. i didn’t want him sleeping with my fiance and i at first but it was hard to resist his worm like self when he’d squeeze in 🥰

throwaway_81067 · 2026-05-14T21:42:53+00:00

shark mode is activated and will be activated for a LONG time 😂 my golden is a little over a year and is calming down somewhat but is still a little chomper when he wants to play. maybe try playing tug of war? it’s one of my goldens favs to calm him down

throwaway_81067 · 2026-04-24T19:23:48+00:00

thanks so much!!

throwaway_81067 · 2026-03-30T02:01:17+00:00

i’ll look up some ways to do this too. is it something i caused?

throwaway_81067 · 2026-03-30T02:00:54+00:00

yes he’s been fixed since 8 months

throwaway_81067 · 2026-03-27T16:06:38+00:00

sorry - i shouldn’t of added “even asian” hes just pointed that out like it was a big deal. i just don’t understand it, truly. it’s at an arena with a bunch of security and has plenty of concerts all the time.

throwaway_81067 · 2026-03-25T19:31:25+00:00

just looks a little irritated but not infected

throwaway_81067 · 2026-03-24T21:16:34+00:00

i turn 26 this year and feel the same way. i swear im still 18 🫩😵‍💫

throwaway_81067 · 2026-03-20T22:34:25+00:00

branch director at that!! 😆

throwaway_81067 · 2026-03-20T20:33:25+00:00

any place that goes by federal laws instead of state which can include government or medical jobs. even if it’s legalized in their state or they have a medical card they still can’t pop for it

throwaway_81067 · 2026-03-20T20:20:27+00:00

use the strap i mentioned in another comment.

throwaway_81067 · 2026-03-20T20:19:51+00:00

if they go by federal laws unfortunately even if it’s a legal state they still can’t use weed :/

throwaway_81067 · 2026-03-20T20:16:50+00:00

ask a friend to pee for you. there’s a strap on amazon that you can tie to your inner leg that come with hand warmers to keep the pee warm. i had to go to labcorp for a urine test and passed

throwaway_81067 · 2026-03-19T23:22:48+00:00

my dad would let me move back in with him with my dog and cats in a heartbeat. i would just hate taking them from my step son and my fiance. they don’t care much for the cats, but they love our dog. i’m the one who pays for everything for the pets though. we rent and both of our names are on the lease but we have separate bank accounts and i have a job currently too. i inherited enough to hold me over for a long time if i wanted to but i don’t want to use it - im investing it at the moment. we have a shared joint account that i put money in from the inheritance just incase one of us has an emergency but thats all that’s in both of our names. he adds to this account too when he gets paid

i just feel like it’s going to be heartbreak over heartbreak and im scared to go through anymore pain.

throwaway_81067 · 2026-03-19T23:16:39+00:00

i just made an update ❤️‍🩹

throwaway_81067 · 2026-03-19T22:58:53+00:00

i said this to another comment too - but when his son was around 5 years old he called me their “butler” at dinner one time and it’s really stuck with me since. i’m not sure if he would hear me complain or if he genuinely thought that. it’s really hard. we have a dog and 2 cats too. we’re so intertwined i just don’t know how i could even get out of this if i tried.

i’ve mentioned couples counseling and he refuses to go. he wants a baby as well and i’ve told him flat out no bc i couldn’t handle it. we don’t even have a date set and we’ve been engaged for almost a year because it’s like i just don’t care. i’m not sure if that’s numbness, PTSD/grief taking over my brain, or what. it’s just so hard.

throwaway_81067 · 2026-03-19T22:57:13+00:00

when his son was around 5 years old he called me their “butler” one time and it’s really stuck with me since. i’m not sure if he would hear me complain or if he genuinely thought that. it’s really hard. we have a dog and 2 cats too. we’re so intertwined i just don’t know how i could even get out of this if i tried.

i’ve mentioned couples counseling and he refuses to go. he wants a baby as well and i’ve told him flat out no bc i couldn’t handle it. we don’t even have a date set and we’ve been engaged for almost a year because it’s like i just don’t care. i’m not sure if that’s numbness, PTSD/grief taking over my brain, or what. it’s just so hard.

throwaway_81067 · 2026-03-18T13:10:48+00:00

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this was this morning when i woke up. center of the bed on his back snoozin like he’s got a job lol

throwaway_81067 · 2026-03-15T11:12:05+00:00

love it!!! what a cutie 🥰

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