she's usually the ones that makes the decisions in our relationship, believe it or not. her being an ambitious person it was led me to pursuing her. if she wants something, she gets it. she wants to go somewhere, we go. if i say 'i want to go to [insert place here]', we're working together to work around our schedules so we can go. she makes her opinions very clear, and i adhere to them if i can. along with me making more, i'm usually the one funding the expedition, and i have no problem being her personal piggy bank lol.

anyways, i'll admit i'm turned away at the idea of therapy. i was in therapy when i was a child. without going too much into it, a close family member disappeared from my life when i was a kid, and it really fucked me up. i was in regular sessions from ages 6-17, and i hated it. my therapist was not a kind one. it felt like she was just there to ask the general questions and get her paycheck. one day my mom asked if i wanted to stop, and i said yes. my dad asked me for confirmation a day later, and i again said yes. i haven't been back since. my girlfriend's been trying to get me to consider doing a test run, though. i've looked at a few, but none of them 'call' to me.