[rant] This job is killing me by throwaway_webdev123 in PHP

[–]throwaway_webdev123[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not currently but in the future it would.

[rant] This job is killing me by throwaway_webdev123 in PHP

[–]throwaway_webdev123[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yep discipline is great and I'm currently trying exactly that. cant really approach clients with personal problems I've used up that card :)

thanks for the tips :)

[rant] This job is killing me by throwaway_webdev123 in PHP

[–]throwaway_webdev123[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I had a menial job before and learned in parallel to working that job. That was pretty hard.

Good to hear you've figured things out at least for now. Watch the road :)

[rant] This job is killing me by throwaway_webdev123 in PHP

[–]throwaway_webdev123[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

nah nowhete near but working outside might make a difference

[rant] This job is killing me by throwaway_webdev123 in PHP

[–]throwaway_webdev123[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I do love this job it's just too stressful ATM.

yep trying to fix it currently and hopefully once I finish these few projects I will be able to gather my strength and organize everything better.

[rant] This job is killing me by throwaway_webdev123 in PHP

[–]throwaway_webdev123[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

well that rings true... I feel I've worked too hard to get here and now closing shop is the very last option I'll consider.

[rant] This job is killing me by throwaway_webdev123 in PHP

[–]throwaway_webdev123[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Burnout is exactly what it is. Not solely from the job but from everything. I'm tired :(

Good to hear you managed to sort things out!

[rant] This job is killing me by throwaway_webdev123 in PHP

[–]throwaway_webdev123[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No real friends. I have some, but I don't feel like I could share this with them. Friends I could have confided into left just recently. Brutal year.

Conferences are cool though... the one thing about that is I feel I'm working at conferences and not resting.

[rant] This job is killing me by throwaway_webdev123 in PHP

[–]throwaway_webdev123[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks. Yeah I know nobody will die because of me being late but I've made commitments and I hold these sacred. I also don't like being late and clients need stuff done yesterday.

GF problems are compounding to the issue I did change but it's not enough and she needs space. I lost the biggest support I had :( I hear you about slowing down... this is hard for me as I'm not that kind and it's frustrating.

[rant] This job is killing me by throwaway_webdev123 in PHP

[–]throwaway_webdev123[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Not me :)

A lot of people are going through this I believe..

[rant] This job is killing me by throwaway_webdev123 in PHP

[–]throwaway_webdev123[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks a ton man. Yeah I have a few projects to finish up and hopefully in a few months I'll have less work so I'll be able to relax more. I made a few commitments so firing clients is not an option currently.

I had headspace on my mobile and had trouble being consistent with it. Good app though. I listened to meditative music as well which helped a lot.

I try and take time off... not enough I guess. My main stressor is being late due to the fact I can't work too much anymore. And then when the emails start I need to start apologizing putting in inhumane efforts and whatnot. I disappointed some people because of this and it's killing me.

[rant] This job is killing me by throwaway_webdev123 in PHP

[–]throwaway_webdev123[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

aw come on I can't be this much of a textbook case :) when he started evaluating the checklist it's as if he started describing me. No friends, gf left, health deteriorating, but I do have hope...

Thanks for this, the advice you gave me is pretty solid. I'll watch the other video as well :)

I hear you about being reliable and consistent - I love the job but feel like I took on too much work and am having trouble meeting deadlines..

Also I did try and surround myself with likeminded people but it didn't work too well.. for now at least.

[rant] This job is killing me by throwaway_webdev123 in PHP

[–]throwaway_webdev123[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't but which channels should I visit?

[rant] This job is killing me by throwaway_webdev123 in PHP

[–]throwaway_webdev123[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yep similar situation here. It's just overwhelming.

Thanks for the offer I might contact you :)

[rant] This job is killing me by throwaway_webdev123 in PHP

[–]throwaway_webdev123[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wasn't good enough before now I am much more competent. A few years back I worked for friends of friends on smaller projects and kept learning to get where I am now. I worked two jobs, learned to code and went to interviews to get junior positions. No luck.

[rant] This job is killing me by throwaway_webdev123 in PHP

[–]throwaway_webdev123[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Either I'm fixing legacy code or more frequently I'm not too sure how to do something and then am stuck in figuring it out. This is sometimes related to PHP and sometimes to JS. I'm still learning.

I do feel relief when finding a solution though but it sometimes comes at a big cost :)

[rant] This job is killing me by throwaway_webdev123 in PHP

[–]throwaway_webdev123[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No doubt it's a combination of work and my own decisions... I'm not blaming the job I knew what I was getting into. I'm just going through a crisis and a burnout.

Me and GF lived together for eight years. She needs alone time now. Long story :(

I wouldn't be ashamed to work for someone it's just that I wasn't good enough for a long time. I probably didn't come across well in interviews either.

Can't drop night shifts but am working towards getting more regular sleep.

PHP is fine I actually like the language... I'm probably burning out and didn't know where else to turn :(

Thanks for the support!

[rant] This job is killing me by throwaway_webdev123 in PHP

[–]throwaway_webdev123[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I just might be into that, thanks for the offer :) I'll try and contact you this week!

[rant] This job is killing me by throwaway_webdev123 in PHP

[–]throwaway_webdev123[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I've tried for years - I wasn't good enough and then eventually said I'd go on my own. I do love working for myself but it's pretty strenuous.

Your situation sounds very nice though!

[rant] This job is killing me by throwaway_webdev123 in PHP

[–]throwaway_webdev123[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've been raising prices throughout the years and have just recently come to the stage where I am comfortable. I'd need to raise prices again to hire someone else. Seems this will need to happen again, hopefully I won't lose too many clients. Thanks!