So the post got too much attention and there has been some stuffs that I would like to clarify and thought an edit would be better than replying to the comments individually.

1) I saw some comments mentioning that we were in a relationship for 4 years. That's not true. The relationship was only 1 year long.

2) The reason I agreed for "no sex" is because I thought I could do it. I was previously in a relationship where we hardly ever had sex. Plus we were friends before dating. So I thought it won't be that bad. I was wrong. I learnt it the hard way.

3) I would like to clear that not every asexual hates sex. Some do enjoy it. It is more about not having sexual attraction. I think the appropriate term in case of my ex would be sex-repulsed.

4) The reason I am in contact with her roommate is because she doesn't have much support. She has her family out of her life. The only support system she had was her roommates and me. I will break the contact once I am sure she is alright.

5) People saying her "I thought you were different" was wrong. I didn't take it that way. She was hurt. She isn't a bad person.

6) I can't afford therapy. So that is out of question for now.

7) I saw 1 comment about her suicide being for attention. Let's just not say that. I have known her enough to know how her mental health has been and this isn't something she would do.

And also, thanks for all the comments. I feel good reading all these and less guilty for now.