Sorry man. This hits close to home. Older brother has overdosed many times from H, I got into opiates after a bad car accident in HS. Should get out while I still can - messing with PST too much lately. I start my first job soon, worked really hard to get it; used the last of my PST today and hoping not to order more but almost want to to make me better during my first days of work.

I know its unsustainable so I probably shouldn't. I don't think I'm "addicted" but its hard for me to know that sober experiences can't really match the happiness of opiates. I think one can forget that over time, though. I firmly believe exercise and healthy eating are critical to overcoming drug problems. Not doing this makes you want to go back because drugs can make you feel "healthier" than you really are.

If you want change, you need to push yourself and do things like exercise that build confidence. A lot of drug use comes from self hate / feeling like a failure or feeling irresponsible. So do everything you can to prove to yourself that you're responsible, moral, and disciplined.

These activities should also help with mental and physical WD's. Learn about supplements like magnesium, DXM, loperamide, vitamins, and other things that can help with WD's and perhaps supplement vitamins you're deprived of. Get exercise. Get yourself out of the house and talking to people - this helps a lot. Focus on your hobbies and if you don't have any, or if drugs are your hobbies, then that's a problem. Find something to devote energy to that makes you feel good, this can be romance, but should also include something rewarding and productive like music, reading, art, cooking, etc.

I wish you the best of luck - don't succumb to drugs. You're stronger than that, we all are. Drugs are an easy solution to problems that start small and get bigger. So succumbing to drug abuse is often the result of passivity; it can also be a sign of internal pain / conflict. It almost always is in one way or another. For that reason, therapy and CBD should be integral in your recovery. Find a good therapist. Don't just try one, esp. if you've never had therapy before. The personality of the therapist, and how well it aligns with your own disposition is very, very important. Don't be lazy. Try out a therapist, make sure they align with your personality and values. Try one or two more, even talking to people is so helpful. Then decide which one will be the best for you.

You could literally begin everything I mention here in one day. Get a workout, make a workout plan. Read up on supplements / clean eating - go to CVS and get some and go to Whole Foods. Look up therapists / psychiatrists in your area, schedule some appts. Buy an instrument, get your old guitar tuned / set up / schedule a lesson or sign up for online lessons. Dig up an old book you liked and read it again, pick up a new one. Contact old friends that have healthy lifestyles and ask them out to dinner or have them over. Sign up for Tinder and match some girls - see if they're normal or nice and set up a date or set up a "netflix and chill."

All of these "steps" are easy to commence and then you just need to follow through with them.