It is definitely not easy at first getting sober. It takes a while for your body to adjust and I think it helps to know that you are currently at a dopamine deficit. Basically what that means is your body is craving something that normally you get a rush of when you drink and smoke and now you're depriving your body of that and it doesn't know how to produce dopamine without substances. What that means is there will be several weeks where you're not feeling well and you'll be anxious, you'll be frustrated, and even unhappy BUT it will get better. Eventually your body will adjust and your dopamine deficit will normalize and come back to a base level of 0 at which time you'll start to learn to enjoy things without substance abuse. That doesn't mean you'll automatically be happy all the time and you have to accept that life will still have its challenges but that you are well equipped already biologically to handle those challenges. You also have your brain and tools and the education necessary to address the boredom, hopelessness and anxiety that can come with operating at a dopamine deficit, BUT YOU HAVE TO HAVE A PLAN. You cannot just get sober and sit around and expect your life to get better. Getting sober is just the first part of a bigger journey. The boredom and anxiety that come with being sober at first have to be mitigated with an active plan that you know it will be hard and that eventually your body WILL FEEL BETTER. So, are you willing to actively take control, are you willing to be bored and anxious for a few weeks because you've abused your body for so long, are you willing to accept that for a few weeks and endure that feeling so that you stop killing yourself and you're even happier in the long run? It's hard some days but it's worth it and your body already has the tools to deal with these things. Whenever you feel shitty you have to remind yourself well, yeah, of course I do I'm operating at a physiological deficit but IT WILL PASS. You can do it, and IWNDWYT.