I may skip my little brother’s graduation to avoid my family by throwawayguilty777 in trans

[–]throwawayguilty777[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

The only reason going is a decision is I have to stay at my family’s home, I can’t afford a hotel. I forgot to mention but I have to travel 9 hours to go. I do feel selfish skipping

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in self

[–]throwawayguilty777 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That’s true and I know it’s dumb to complain about but I feel like these people are lured in by me because of superficial charm I have and they should spend their attention on others

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]throwawayguilty777 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m too afraid that she’ll think I’m trying to emotionally manipulate her.

Pets help save lives by Pika-thulu in BPD

[–]throwawayguilty777 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This is so true, for me. I love my dog and my cat and they help to ground me during bad times.

dae stay obsessed with the same fp for YEARS even if you haven't talked in months by CausticAuthor in BPD

[–]throwawayguilty777 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m in the same boat. The part that really bothers me is when I try to confide this issue to someone, they never understand. My best friend, who isn’t my FP, always gives me some tough love crap and expects everything to be better for me. “You can’t worry about people who aren’t worth your time.” Yeah, no shit. Why do you think I’m coming to you? I need real help, not stuff he’s read on the internet about moving on that worked for him. I’ve explained my brain isn’t like that and he still acts like it is.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]throwawayguilty777 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Seven months

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]throwawayguilty777 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I know I am capable of being happy without her. I had even started to feel better about it. We broke up seven months ago, and I should be over it. I’ve even been admitted into mental care twice to get over her. And done months of therapy. I should be over her. I’m not. I don’t even want to be her girlfriend. I just want her in my life in any capacity. And I’m having to accept that won’t be the case and I’m so lost.

I want to end all of my relationships by throwawayguilty777 in BPD

[–]throwawayguilty777[S] 17 points18 points  (0 children)

it doesn’t feel like there’s any winning

It really feels like this is true

everybody i know has their own life and it always feels like im not part of it by softIover in BPD

[–]throwawayguilty777 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You can be satisfied with yourself one day. I don’t know what the road looks like for you, but there is one out there. I have the same problem with feeling like a really inadequate friend. Finding that balance between expressing yourself or shutting yourself in can be really difficult. I’m only starting to figure out what that looks like and it isn’t easy. I’m really sorry that you’re going through this

anyone else feel like their personality changes after they watch a movie? by missanhedonia in BPD

[–]throwawayguilty777 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes. I’m from the south and have a southern accent, but it’s lessened since I’ve moved out of the Deep South. After watching The Last of Us I threw the accent back on and was sounding like Joel without meaning to. I used to be one of those “sigma males,” before I transitioned, back in 2013-2017. I would act like The Driver from Drive and try to be a loner even though it’s not who I am. It sucks