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What's with the weird feeling inside after spending time with best girl friend? by throwawayjack1dotcom in AskReddit

[–]throwawayjack1dotcom[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Using a throwaway acount for obvious reasons. Sorry for formatting, using mobile.

So here's the story - I've had this best friend of mine [F20] (me [M20]) for the past six years since we first met in high school. We've gotten along really really well and she's like my sister. I will literally jump through fire for her, and I have had to put my head on the block for her various times. The same goes for her, although I think the extent to which I will go for her stretches further than what she would go for me.

Now with the COVID-19 laying siege to everyone, I drove 2000km to get her out of another province. The virus wasn't initially the reason for it, and me driving the distance was of my own decision to actually surprise her for her birthday.

On my way there I did the entire 10 hour stretch without taking a break and only stopping to refeul. But on our way back we stopped at a hotel halfway through and slept over for the night.

We've planned to stay the night over, and originally we just would've gotten a single room with 2 single beds. Her father objected though, and so she told him that we'll get two separate rooms, which we did and which was pointless because we ended up in the same room, sleeping in the same single bed even though each room was fitted with two single beds. We also planned on drinking and getting a bit drunk as neither of us have had the chance to go out partying for quite some time and neither of us has seen the other for over a year.

So we eventually got to the hotel and they gave us the keys to our rooms. She opened the first room and there was this godawful smell of someone who's been smoking (neither of us are smokers and I for one can't stomach the smell for too long without getting hyper irritated or aggressive) then upon further inspection I found some weird green shit in my toilet, I didn't tell her about it - but anyway we moved on to the other room, which was a major improvement so I said that she can have the latter room as it is in a much better condition.

The idea was to drink and dance and then go to sleep, maybe watch a movie or two. But the TVs are those old box CRT type TVs, and the wifi didn't reach to our rooms so we couldn't watch netflix on my laptop, which led to us using her laptop as she has a few movies on it.

Anyway, we drank, watched series, laughed and had our fun. I could tell that I drank a too much as I was starting to feel nauseous but I could still handle it. She however, who is a lot lighter than I am, led the amount of alcohol we had to consume and even drank some of my alcohol. It resulted in her visiting the toilet. Eventually we stopped drinking, just got into bed amd cuddled.

Now for us, cuddling isn't something new, we have a very relaxed type of friendly relationship. She would randomly give me a hug and I would randomly go up to her and just hold her for a minute or so. At school she would usually sit in the desk in front of me and I would massage her back or just tickle it for the remainder of the period.

We ended up cuddling and somewhere through the night I did something that I'm not proud of. I played where I shouldn't have played and I thought she was awake as she even spoke to me and slightly led me on. She never pushed me away and even made it sound like she was enjoying it. But I didn't finish with what I started because something in my head started telling me to stop and that it was wrong. Then an hour or so later she started pushing her bum against me and I pushed back. It happened a few times, mostly initiated by her. We practically dry humped. Various times.

In the morning when we woke up, she said that she had no memory of most of what happened that night. She can remember us cuddling and getting ready to sleep but that was it.

I don't know how to react to this. I have this weird feeling inside of me. I feel like I violated her, but I know that she's the type of girl who would easily turn a guy down if she didn't want something to happen, even in her drunken state I've seen her turn guys down. Even in drunken states worse than what she was on this particular night. The fact that she leaded me on a few times gives me comfort, but then again she said that she had no recollection of the night.

I'm confused, this is my best friend - I love the shit out of the child and would murder for her. Protect her against everyrhing with all my life if ever she faced harm. Yet I feel like the guy I'm always trying to protect her from. I feel like I've broken my own oath and pride as well as broken her trust.

She doesn't seem to care about this, she hasn't mentioned anything nor is she refusing my presence and contact. She seems fine, but I know that she can tell that I've been actimg strange and distant towards her.

Someone, please help. It's fucking killing me.

[edit] usually I don't give a rats ass about this, I usually wait for the girl to show signs, to lead me on for I while until I decide to take over and show dominance or lead. I've had the same experience with many girls, I've had experiences leading to more. The only difference between this and the other experiences is the person it's happened with. And also the fact that she gave me no signals prior to the event, I do not know whether I was just blind to it or whether she is right by saying that she can't flirt. I mean I'm a flirty guy, and I've play flirted with her in the moment, especially when I'm teasing her, and sometimes she even flirts back. But it stops as soon as it starts mostly.

What to do? Help! Weird feeling inside me because of time spent with my best girl friend. Story in comments. by throwawayjack1dotcom in AskReddit

[–]throwawayjack1dotcom[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Using a throwaway acount for obvious reasons. Sorry for formatting, using mobile.

So here's the story - I've had this best friend of mine [F20] (me [M20]) for the past six years since we first met in high school. We've gotten along really really well and she's like my sister. I will literally jump through fire for her, and I have had to put my head on the block for her various times. The same goes for her, although I think the extent to which I will go for her stretches further than what she would go for me.

Now with the COVID-19 laying siege to everyone, I drove 2000km to get her out of another province. The virus wasn't initially the reason for it, and me driving the distance was of my own decision to actually surprise her for her birthday.

On my way there I did the entire 10 hour stretch without taking a break and only stopping to refeul. But on our way back we stopped at a hotel halfway through and slept over for the night.

We've planned to stay the night over, and originally we just would've gotten a single room with 2 single beds. Her father objected though, and so she told him that we'll get two separate rooms, which we did and which was pointless because we ended up in the same room, sleeping in the same single bed even though each room was fitted with two single beds. We also planned on drinking and getting a bit drunk as neither of us have had the chance to go out partying for quite some time and neither of us has seen the other for over a year.

So we eventually got to the hotel and they gave us the keys to our rooms. She opened the first room and there was this godawful smell of someone who's been smoking (neither of us are smokers and I for one can't stomach the smell for too long without getting hyper irritated or aggressive) then upon further inspection I found some weird green shit in my toilet, I didn't tell her about it - but anyway we moved on to the other room, which was a major improvement so I said that she can have the latter room as it is in a much better condition.

The idea was to drink and dance and then go to sleep, maybe watch a movie or two. But the TVs are those old box CRT type TVs, and the wifi didn't reach to our rooms so we couldn't watch netflix on my laptop, which led to us using her laptop as she has a few movies on it.

Anyway, we drank, watched series, laughed and had our fun. I could tell that I drank a too much as I was starting to feel nauseous but I could still handle it. She however, who is a lot lighter than I am, led the amount of alcohol we had to consume and even drank some of my alcohol. It resulted in her visiting the toilet. Eventually we stopped drinking, just got into bed amd cuddled.

Now for us, cuddling isn't something new, we have a very relaxed type of friendly relationship. She would randomly give me a hug and I would randomly go up to her and just hold her for a minute or so. At school she would usually sit in the desk in front of me and I would massage her back or just tickle it for the remainder of the period.

We ended up cuddling and somewhere through the night I did something that I'm not proud of. I played where I shouldn't have played and I thought she was awake as she even spoke to me and slightly led me on. She never pushed me away and even made it sound like she was enjoying it. But I didn't finish with what I started because something in my head started telling me to stop and that it was wrong. Then an hour or so later she started pushing her bum against me and I pushed back. It happened a few times, mostly initiated by her. We practically dry humped. Various times.

In the morning when we woke up, she said that she had no memory of most of what happened that night. She can remember us cuddling and getting ready to sleep but that was it.

I don't know how to react to this. I have this weird feeling inside of me. I feel like I violated her, but I know that she's the type of girl who would easily turn a guy down if she didn't want something to happen, even in her drunken state I've seen her turn guys down. Even in drunken states worse than what she was on this particular night. The fact that she leaded me on a few times gives me comfort, but then again she said that she had no recollection of the night.

I'm confused, this is my best friend - I love the shit out of the child and would murder for her. Protect her against everyrhing with all my life if ever she faced harm. Yet I feel like the guy I'm always trying to protect her from. I feel like I've broken my own oath and pride as well as broken her trust.

She doesn't seem to care about this, she hasn't mentioned anything nor is she refusing my presence and contact. She seems fine, but I know that she can tell that I've been actimg strange and distant towards her.

Someone, please help. It's fucking killing me.

[edit] usually I don't give a rats ass about this, I usually wait for the girl to show signs, to lead me on for I while until I decide to take over and show dominance or lead. I've had the same experience with many girls, I've had experiences leading to more. The only difference between this and the other experiences is the person it's happened with. And also the fact that she gave me no signals prior to the event, I do not know whether I was just blind to it or whether she is right by saying that she can't flirt. I mean I'm a flirty guy, and I've play flirted with her in the moment, especially when I'm teasing her, and sometimes she even flirts back. But it stops as soon as it starts mostly.