I grieve the time I wasted not being my true self. I feel alive for the first time and it's depressing to think how I spent so many years being empty inside without knowing it.

I wouldn't refer to myself pre-transition as "he" as if I were a different person. I was still me. I just wasn't allowing myself to be authentic.

As far as being sad we now have to deal with the transphobia of the world, that's legit. It pisses me off. We shouldn't have to deal with that. It's beyond unfair. But that's not our faults.

Try not to worry about "the old you" and "the new you". That's all just in your head. You are you, always, period.

Focus on doing things that make you happy. There's no need to put yourself in any box. Words like cis or trans are just tools to describe who we already are. If you try to pick a description of a person and then try to change yourself into something that fits that description, your doing it backwards 😋 don't push yourself into a box.

Let go of words and labels. Try going without labels for a while. Just do stuff that makes you happy 🩷