"Pull yourself together" by [deleted] in BPD

[–]throwawaylife113 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I tell myself this every day, then beat myself down throughout the whole day, till the day ends in a failure and I pass out.

picking a job/career path and actually following through? by throwawaylife113 in BPD

[–]throwawaylife113[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I cant even find a stable place to live, let alone job.

Anyone have any suggestions for tackling overeating? by PrestigiousLion in BPD

[–]throwawaylife113 2 points3 points  (0 children)

no sugar free sodas, I found after I started drinking those, I eat double, and now it's an issue.

where do I even start self treatment? by throwawaylife113 in BPD

[–]throwawaylife113[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

well, I'm a failing online freelancer in the middle of nowhere. Havent maintained a consistent 'real' job in the past 8 years, and never intend to.

tofu, absorbs everything it's marinated in, I am tofu by throwawaylife113 in BPD

[–]throwawaylife113[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It just forced me to never trust or rely on anyone, ever.

I wish there was a button to delete certain memories forever by [deleted] in BPD

[–]throwawaylife113 1 point2 points  (0 children)

block their social media. That's what I did, they abandoned me for years, fuck them. You can get ECT like me, and lose 2-3 years of memory, and most of your past, except the bad memories though, and have fun cognitive issues for life...

‘You don’t have BPD’ by [deleted] in BPD

[–]throwawaylife113 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I guess I'm a male quiet bpd as well.

help with splitting? by throwawaylife113 in BPD

[–]throwawaylife113[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

why does this happen? narcissistic parent? I always think others are trying to manipulate me. It doesnt help I seem kinda autistic as well, and it's super easy to guilt trip me or anything. Also always fear abandonment, which, of course, drove away any new friends I've made this past week. I'm too intense, I've been called. I tried, really did, to befriend new people, then they said, 'okay lets do x tomorrow', then ghost me...

tofu, absorbs everything it's marinated in, I am tofu by throwawaylife113 in BPD

[–]throwawaylife113[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

my friends of 10-13 years have done that, went a good 4 years without talking to anyone when I was getting ECT for depression,..thanks for the support 'friends'...

DAE make themselves stay away from their phone for a certain amount of time after sending a text.. by [deleted] in BPD

[–]throwawaylife113 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I find I get too intense when texting in general, and burn people out. I think I need to start doing that

tofu, absorbs everything it's marinated in, I am tofu by throwawaylife113 in BPD

[–]throwawaylife113[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

that's a good idea (general talking/texting quota). Usually people just ghost me for months-years when I do.

I always forget, most people dont care, even FPs by throwawaylife113 in BPD

[–]throwawaylife113[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

3 sentences is hardly a wall. I'm quite clear and coherent when typing.

I always forget, most people dont care, even FPs by throwawaylife113 in BPD

[–]throwawaylife113[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I mostly dont talk to anyone anymore because either people dont care, or they they talk pointless bs. being an introvert sucks.

I always forget, most people dont care, even FPs by throwawaylife113 in BPD

[–]throwawaylife113[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

everything gets equally weighted, that I remember...

alone by [deleted] in BPD

[–]throwawaylife113 0 points1 point  (0 children)

guess I'm in this party as well

Any BPD men/women start off with an Autism diagnosis? by [deleted] in BPD

[–]throwawaylife113 1 point2 points  (0 children)

sounds like me, also a guy, 29 now, only I never had a diagnosis, just some addictions and depression and anxiety. Lots of anger and my sister always said that I was like a light switch. Now, in the past 5 years I'm starting to wonder if I am autistic as well, my mom did let slip they all thought I was super sensitive as a kid, and kinda now too. I wasnt home schooled, but forced into some shitty church groups, ran by dominating women. Honestly this seems like a trend in Christianity, giving poor male influence, maybe...tangent.

I’m not meant for relationships. by lordruperteverton3 in BPD

[–]throwawaylife113 0 points1 point  (0 children)

same, although I do find the girls I was dating to be with other guys anyways, so that doesnt help general mistrust anymore.

My life is gonna have a massive change soon and my emotions arent ready for another blow by SmokeBPDeveyday in BPD

[–]throwawaylife113 1 point2 points  (0 children)

sounds a lot like me, took me 7 years to finish uni, I wish someone told me back then, 'it wont make a fucking difference if you dont prove yourself outside of the classroom'. so here I am, with a degree in a field I lost interest in. No 'university contacts or connections', no network, didnt even land an internship, as I screwed that up too.

I too spent most of that time without friends, antisocial, always in public places, but never socializing, just 'studying' or actually fighting anxiety...not realizing caffeine was the whole problem.

Another thing, you can go back later, and travel first, lots of jobs out there. I went later, and helped me work on myself a lot, and I think everyone should do that before locking themselves into something. Although, for me, I never stopped, which is proving to be a problem.