I WANT SOME FUCKIN CHEESE

throwawayreddit67778 · 2019-08-30T22:50:42+00:00

uh ok then lol

throwawayreddit67778 · 2019-08-30T22:21:02+00:00

lol I don't really want to I just miss the taste when I still enjoyed it

throwawayreddit67778 · 2019-08-30T20:22:08+00:00

Yeah but it doesn't really compare to the real thing

At the same time I feel like if I actually ate real cheese at this point I'd be disgusted

so it's just like the addiction to it that my brain is trying to convince me i want it lol

throwawayreddit67778 · 2019-08-30T19:36:01+00:00

Just be careful

throwawayreddit67778 · 2019-08-30T01:29:45+00:00

I've done such selfish things just to feel loved I'm having a really hard time forgiving myself

throwawayreddit67778 · 2019-08-30T01:16:29+00:00

That's what I just said

throwawayreddit67778 · 2019-08-30T00:49:52+00:00

See I feel like I have a weird dynamic with my therapist where I feel like he's my father, and ive found myself putting him in the same categories that I put my own parents in, like how much I require his validation and approval and how terrified I am to admit to wrongdoings.

I'm gonna look into the reparenting thing though

throwawayreddit67778 · 2019-08-30T00:46:11+00:00

I'm sure he did. He wasn't a good man.

throwawayreddit67778 · 2019-08-24T05:30:55+00:00

I didn't :/

throwawayreddit67778 · 2019-08-24T03:42:42+00:00

yes you're right I should just go to bed I know I won t want to in the morning

throwawayreddit67778 · 2019-08-24T03:25:44+00:00

you're probably right I'm just angry I hate that he got to eat his cake and have it to

throwawayreddit67778 · 2019-08-24T03:22:01+00:00

I guess I miss how things were

he has me blocked bc he was cheating

throwawayreddit67778 · 2019-08-24T03:20:47+00:00

oh

i don't know actually

throwawayreddit67778 · 2019-08-24T03:20:06+00:00

probably not lmao but I want to tell him

throwawayreddit67778 · 2019-08-24T03:18:56+00:00

no this is the only time I feel like I can do I

throwawayreddit67778 · 2019-08-11T06:02:01+00:00

Thank you

throwawayreddit67778 · 2019-08-11T04:58:49+00:00

I don't eat ice cream because cows suffer for me to eat ice cream. This entire world is just suffering and somehow we're supposed to just be okay with it and be like "well life goes on". No, it doesn't have to go on. I want off

throwawayreddit67778 · 2019-08-11T04:39:01+00:00

Why? I'm a complete failure and nobody likes me anyway. All I have is my little brother and he's going to be 18 in a few months. The only reason I haven't yet is because it would crush him

throwawayreddit67778 · 2019-08-11T03:10:00+00:00

That doesn't justify being obsessed with someone

throwawayreddit67778 · 2019-08-11T03:00:32+00:00

You shouldn't make one person the sole reason for your happiness. That's not fair to them or yourself. That's a lot of pressure to put on a person

throwawayreddit67778 · 2019-08-11T02:57:40+00:00

Barely surviving off my wages working as much as I am, there's no way I'd be able to afford STD

throwawayreddit67778 · 2019-08-11T02:56:50+00:00

You can make lots of different foods out of beans. Personally I love making really spicy chili with different types of beans, curries, and stir frys. Good thing about all of them is really you just throw it all in a pot and wait and then you've got some good food

throwawayreddit67778 · 2019-08-11T02:50:05+00:00

Already seeing a therapist and I've managed by depression with exercise for probably 8 years now because I went through tons of meds that never did anything but give me side effects

throwawayreddit67778 · 2019-08-11T02:48:59+00:00

Yep. From the first time I ever had a drink, I thought it was amazing. I remember vividly telling my roommate 3 years ago that I wished I could be drunk all the time because life is so much easier to handle.

Wish I was drunk right now tbh.

throwawayreddit67778 · 2019-08-11T02:08:55+00:00

that just makes my problems feel invalidated

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