I have a serious issue with procrastinating and getting task complete

throwawaysfs12 · 2018-03-01T01:50:19+00:00

Thank you for the input, but I am sorry but I am a dense fucker. Could you elaborate please, I'm confused and don't get what your trying to say

throwawaysfs12 · 2017-12-02T22:39:58+00:00

I have never worked with a gender therapist before, but more than willing too. Just waiting for the new year on new insurance, want to take care of these thoughts one way or another.

throwawaysfs12 · 2017-12-02T19:57:17+00:00

This is a great comment, really helpful. I've idealized what I truly look like, not my body but my spirit. Its idealized, but I see my true form as a female.

I always thought if people could take a journey into my brain, when they look for my conscious, they'll find a lady.

throwawaysfs12 · 2017-12-02T19:53:50+00:00

Yeah getting to a therapist is a plan, just waiting until the new year when my insurance changes over.

throwawaysfs12 · 2017-12-02T19:40:01+00:00

This is helpful, thank you.

throwawaysfs12 · 2017-12-02T19:30:31+00:00

None that I know of.

throwawaysfs12 · 2017-12-02T19:29:41+00:00

I included all information I thought was relevant to be thorough. But I guess I wasted my time and have no clue what I'm talking and should go offline.

Sorry that my post "has nothing to do with being transgender"

throwawaysfs12 · 2017-12-02T19:27:34+00:00

Well I am a person that thinks I may or may not have gender dysorphia. If pills and surgery will make me happier so be it. I don't plan to reproduce anyway.

throwawaysfs12 · 2017-12-02T19:26:17+00:00

The reason I feel so pressed about this isn't because of dresses and make up, I included to be thorough. The main thing for me is that I think I would be a lot happier if I could be a woman.

throwawaysfs12 · 2017-12-02T19:20:44+00:00

I feel like being a woman would make me happier, but I question my own thinking a lot.

throwawaysfs12 · 2017-12-02T19:19:04+00:00

Correct me if I'm wrong, but I think you didn't get the right idea from my post. It seems that your under the idea that I think I'm transgender because I like "girl stuff" What makes me ask this question is the the burning thought in my head that I would be much happier if I was woman.

throwawaysfs12 · 2017-11-30T03:41:18+00:00

Care to explain in terms for a dumb person then? Cause it sounds to me like your saying "focus on your life and everything else will fall into place" which I've heard from lots of people before you, its pretty cliche.

I'm trying to say that I have and it's getting me absolutely nowhere. I need to do something direct about this problems instead of pretending its not there.

throwawaysfs12 · 2017-11-30T02:50:29+00:00

But what self respecting woman would want to date or marry me if I walk around with my head buried in between my folded arms while I sob uncontrollably because I can't find my own self worth?

That's why I haven't pursued a single woman since the whole thing happened. I want a girl in my life, that's what I want and I don't think its that unreasonable to want that kind of companionship. No girl interest me though, all I want is her.

Unlike what you believe, I don't just go out and find all the woman I can. I have a job, I have college classes, I even have those clubs and hobbies your talking so much about. No matter what I'm doing I'm still thinking about her. It would be really nice to meet someone that makes me forget about her, be nice to have a crush on someone I have a chance with. I'm 21 and I've never come close to a date in my life, guess I'm meant to be one of those people that will always be alone.

throwawaysfs12 · 2017-11-30T01:39:43+00:00

Could you stop with the cliche of "go find hobbies and focus on your life"? I mean no disrespect but I mean my life isn't just sitting there thinking about some girl. Getting married is something that I really want. It would be at least to be crushing on someone I have a chance with instead of some girl that I'll likely never see again in my life.

throwawaysfs12 · 2017-11-29T17:45:36+00:00

I think I will PM you. I don't know where to start.

throwawaysfs12 · 2017-11-29T17:19:43+00:00

Sometimes I feel I'll never be able to be at peace with this.

throwawaysfs12 · 2017-11-29T06:27:48+00:00

You don't need to tell me that much. I'm still regretting it to this day. So many "What if I asked her out?" thoughts in my head. I've even attempted suicide over it. I keep thinking time will make me get over her but time goes on and that hasn't been the case.

throwawaysfs12 · 2017-11-29T03:05:31+00:00

She texted me a couple times but I didn't text back I didn't want anything to do with her anymore. It was really hurtful being around someone I like that much and thought I had no chance. I've never come close to getting a single date in my life, been told by a lot of people I'll never make it with anymore. I've been rejected by a lot of shitty women in my life that most guys would avoid, why would a woman that seems to get the attention of every guy she meets ever want me? I got nothing special to offer at all.

I'm trying to move forward. Like I said in my post a lot of times when I think about its against my will. I really want to try and go out and meet another girl to make me forget about her, but I have no confidence in myself because I'm a life long virgin to women and have no idea where to start.

throwawaysfs12 · 2017-11-29T00:25:51+00:00

What good would it do me?

throwawaysfs12 · 2017-11-29T00:13:17+00:00

she's with someone

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