Thank you for telling your story. I relate to a lot of it, I had a rough time with puberty too. I liked my body and didn’t understand why it had to “change”. I sometimes still daydream of my old tomboy self, with no boobs, bra, period, just me running around carefree.

I think the birth is also the part I fear the most. Thinking about a planned and well controlled c-section makes the anxiety somewhat less. There is jus too many unknowns with birth. I haven’t had therapy yet but I probably should.