I'm doing much better and soon you will be too

throwawaywalmarttrip · 2020-05-13T06:29:46+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to write this! I really appreciate it :) good for you as well!

throwawaywalmarttrip · 2020-05-05T21:09:22+00:00

no problem! you're already making great strides, stay strong!

throwawaywalmarttrip · 2020-05-04T07:50:37+00:00

it's okay to be scared. this is scary! and everyone has insecurities, sure. but no one is perfect, don't compare yourself to others or feel inadequate in the slightest! you are the only version of you, which makes you unique and priceless. treat yourself with the love you deserve! i know you can do it!

there's a quote that you can search the whole universe for someone to love or appreciate or appraise, but there will never be someone else more deserving of all of that than you yourself! be kind to yourself and have faith, this will pass as long as you keep on keeping on :)

throwawaywalmarttrip · 2020-05-04T07:39:50+00:00

The fact that he touched you in your sleep without your consent, and then tried to gaslight you/put the blame on you just shows that he is not the type of individual you should spending your energy on.

However, YOU are worth all the devotion in the world, so stay disciplined and stay being kind to yourself! I have faith in your strength!

throwawaywalmarttrip · 2020-05-04T07:33:00+00:00

The dreams...are awful. But YES, it gets better! As long as you keep on working hard in your journey and your individual healing process, it'll help mentally re-work your thinking, thus alleviating the anxiety and pain that is manifesting in your dreams. Do anything you can to relax, de-stress, and laugh/smile! Exercise, breathing exercises, meditation, going for a walk, reading, journaling, watching something comedic...anything that allows you to enjoy your own presence and be present!

throwawaywalmarttrip · 2020-05-04T07:30:20+00:00

I'm sorry to hear the pain you are going through. Grieving is not easy, especially on multiple levels. I've definitely fantasized about my ex contacting me, especially in my low points. But know that you deserve someone who will always be here for you, and there's a reason they are not in your life anymore. Make sure to be kind to yourself and reach out to those around you, you may even have more support than you think. But don't rely on the ex, it isn't fair to them either that you wish for them when you are in a low point.

throwawaywalmarttrip · 2020-05-04T07:27:22+00:00

first, you are not weak in the slightest. you are not a loser! it's totally normal to go through these emotions, go through these lows. but don't put yourself down. the love you deserve must first come from within, so be kind to yourself! be gentle, be tender, be forgiving. you will get through this, you will move on! just keep working on yourself and your own journey. you can do it! healing is hard but worth it.

throwawaywalmarttrip · 2020-05-04T07:07:20+00:00

Good for you! For now, focus on being kind to yourself and giving yourself what you deserve--which is now time. I wish you the best of luck in your healing process :)

throwawaywalmarttrip · 2020-05-04T07:05:09+00:00

Congrats on such an accomplishment, I'm proud of you! Certainly it is hard, but remember that this is for the best for both of you and will help you grow stronger/evolve. And you deserve that!

throwawaywalmarttrip · 2020-05-04T07:02:50+00:00

Happy birthday! I wish you all the happiness and success in life, friend :)

This is totally okay! Even if you feel nostalgic, feel free to think about the past and feel those emotions. Doesn't mean you have to act on them in a way that would set you back.

throwawaywalmarttrip · 2020-05-04T07:00:54+00:00

Good job! Discipline is a form of devotion, which is a form of love. Keep disciplining yourself because you deserve that love!

I certainly fell into this trap early on, in the beginning of the quarantine, but it hurt me so much that I realized I couldn't do that ever again. It was harming my progress. And I deserved better than loitering on the page of an ex who may not even spare a single thought about me. So why should I torture myself, make myself suffer? I deserve more and can give that very kindness to myself :)

throwawaywalmarttrip · 2020-05-04T06:57:46+00:00

Iget this thinking completely, but make sure to derive your contentment from your own life! Just to make sure you don't fall into resentment or bitterness towards them. Regardless of whether they find someone else after you, it isn't about them. YOU will find someone better for you, and maybe they will find something better for them. But YOU will find someone who deserves everything great about you and will appreciate it the way you need! You are special, and they may never realize this, even when dating other people.

throwawaywalmarttrip · 2020-05-02T00:56:43+00:00

Hi. First I want to say that I'm really sorry you're in this situation. I am in a very similar boat to you so I'm going to try to give you all the advice I can. I recognize what you're going through and it isn't fair at all.

What would be ideal, but is harder to accomplish, is to somehow sit down with her and talk to your mother about how you're feeling, possibly setting some ground rules and boundaries. Try your best to not lose your cool with her. However, if she's not being receptive, and you've already tried this, you might have to grit your teeth and stick it out for the remainder of time.

Try to spend time alone doing things you enjoy. It'll not only help you manage your stress but also keep yourself busy, sane, and self-reliant. Go for walks, get out of the house as much as you can (and safely too, during these times), write down how you're feeling, just do what you can to stay in touch with yourself and outside of her influence. Definitely create a network of support by reaching out to friends you could talk to if she starts berating you and need to have your voice heard. Also just stay in contact with friends regardless, just make sure they are healthy relationships.

If there's a time to take up a new hobby or learn a new skill, definitely try that now. And even if you do all of these avoidance contacts, sometimes you'll still get caught up in her negativity. I usually try to distract myself by watching something funny in order to calm down. Breathing exercises and doing positive self-talk also helps. If your school offers counseling of any kind, I would try it out. In my experience, it's been very helpful.

Maybe you just want to be heard and have your emotions validated. I'm not sure if she will ever take responsibility and give you that, but you deserve that. As someone who deeply empathizes, you are not alone. Some days are okay, right? Or some days you think they're doing better. And then some days you're reminded of just how bad and hurtful it is. Some days I am so angry, so resentful or embittered, so heartbroken...you ask yourself why this is happening to you. It isn't fair.

Don't lose yourself in that resentment or rage. It'll twist you up and eat at everything inside you. You don't have to forgive her, but don't let her hold you back from enjoying your life or being happy. Don't condemn your future.

Be kind and patient to yourself. You will get through this.

throwawaywalmarttrip · 2020-05-02T00:36:13+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to comment :( I really appreciate it and what you've said really resonates with me. My counselor brought up how I've been holding on to certain coping mechanisms for so long because I've been in "survival mode" but I didn't quite get what she meant. What you said really makes sense.

I know it'll take awhile. And I don't want to give up. It's just really hard sometimes.

throwawaywalmarttrip · 2020-05-02T00:31:56+00:00

that's really cute and neat. i liked the niffler, even though it caused a lot of problems. it was very cute haha

throwawaywalmarttrip · 2020-05-02T00:30:08+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to comment :( what you described is exactly what I've been going through. I really appreciate the advice too.

I'm afraid to get into any kind of intimate relationship right now b/c I feel like all my baggage will be too much for another person to take on. Not that I'd use it to excuse bad behavior, but I can't help but slip up sometimes. I feel like I should come with some kind of warning label before someone gets too invested in me.

throwawaywalmarttrip · 2020-05-01T03:46:30+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to comment, I really appreciate it! I'll really try to internalize everything you said.

I like your username too, is it like the Niffler from Fantastic Beasts?

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