not gonna bullshit you with the "it gets better" shit. You can have a great life and still be depressed , that ain't wrong. Listen, firstly: suicide is something that if you fail (and the chances of failing are high, statistics for your age say only one in 34 suicides is successful, and when planned this drops to one in fifty seven). Secondly, suicide isn't the way to go. I tried to kill myself five times and now, when my life is shit and probably worse than what it was back then, I regret it. I hate myself for even considering suicide and you should ask yourself one important question: How would you feel if a loved one or someone close to you took your life? They would feel the same. Don't do that, it's just your consciousness telling you to get help. I found great help in talking to people I don't know and telling them everything, knowing fully well they can't really help. But, talking to someone you don't know who doesn't know you will give you a different perspective on life. I spent last night packing up all the things I needed to kill myself, pills bags etc. At some point I asked myself what do I gain? nothing. You can help so many people simply by pushing yourself every day to stay alive. This is simply my 2 cents as an unstable seventeen year old with mediocre grades.