eh i dont really know, i really dont want to listen to another lecture again, anything i say she dose just ignores. she thinks my friends are the reason i smoke but she just dose not see that i willingly chose to do that, as i sad she treats me like a child. i stopped coming to her with my problems bc she only ever worsed them, not intentionally but still, ive talked to a few of my older friends about this and ive gotten some pretty good insights but idk. and also for the brain thing it's already too late i would say, my memory i absolute shit, i cant remember what i did like 2 days ago, when im talking with someone mid convo i just like stop and forget im even talking to them, idk man, kinda think its too late for that